Well another day is about to come to an end, Yet i find it odd that it's a Saturday night and i'm not out partying, drinkin, and doing what i do every weekend instead i'm at home alone watching netflix about to take my meds and head off to bed so i can be up for church in the morning...yes thats right i'm going to chruch in the morning and well i might be the first time i've steped into a church in years...thats very sad to say but i've live the past few years feeling like i didn't hav the need to go to chruch plus i feel ashamed for walking into God'd house with all the mistakes i've made in my very very very bad sinful life. Well we can't all be perfect...My Father used to always tell me that "Not even the angels in Heaven are perfect". I just hope that this step in my life to better myself is the eye opener that i need.
On a good note i'm with a new band now that has still yet to have come up with a name but it's a step back into making the music i've always wanted to do. Even tho i've been in over 6 bands over the past 11 years now i feel that this one could be the one for me. We are doing alot of White Chapel style Metal and i really dig it plus all the guys in the band i know pretty well and enjoy jamin with them. This might be another step in the right direction for me *Fingers Crossed*
Well even tho i'm not drinkin tonight its for a good reason that i can't mix alcohol with my meds and i've found some new friends that are starting to make me feel what it's like to smile again. The struggle i've been through will take a long time to heal the scars i have gotten but i thank you all for being the TRUE friends that i need right now to keep me strong with my life. I've come too far to give up on life right now. It's my time...The time is now
Have a great weekend everyone and if this is your first time reading my post and you have enjoyed what you have heard please add me or leave a comment...i'm looking for new friends and would love to chat, night everyone
~Jay~ |
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