I'm whipped...

Hello there bloopers! How's it going? Well I must say I'm freezing!

Now to get to the point, I'm whipped. That's right, I'm the girl and I'm the whipped one. Are there any other whipped girls or am I alone on this one? You know I don't really mind all that much until my boyfriend, who I am head over heels, madly in love with, doesn't pay so much attention to me. Well atleast I feel like he doesn't. I love him more than anything and I would do anything for him. I've known him pretty much my whole life and we've been together on and off since the fifth grade. We both love each other and I know he means it when he says it because he isn't the kind of guy who throws that word around. He wouldn't say it if he didn't mean it.

I've been feeling bummed out all day today because of something I thought since it happened this morning. Okay, I hardly see my boyfriend because I have to babysit everyday after school until around 6:30pm and he always gets a lot of homework because he has AP classes. Anyways, I'm always the one who goes to hold his hand, give him a hug before he goes off to class, and I always tell him I want a kiss. Do you get what I'm dishin' here? It's just before he hugs me to go to class he only puts one arm around me and pats my back. Like seriously what boyfriend hugs their girlfriend like that. I know that he doesn't like PDA and I'm not asking him to shove me against the wall and kiss me or anything but what's so bad about giving your girlfriend an innocent hug before you go to class? I don't see the harm in it honestly. His friend even pointed it out this morning, "You hug her like she's a guy or something." I HATE it and he knows it.

At first I thought he only did that because he knows it drives me crazy but I'm not so sure anymore. I don't want to just tell him how I feel because I don't want to upset him. It's not like he's a bad boyfriend either. When we're alone everything is usually amazing but we're hardly alone! I mean I seriously only get to see him before school starts and sometimes on the weekends.

I don't know what to do. I don't even know if you guys are still reading this but if you are please help me. What do you think I should do? Do you think I'm just blowing everything out of proportion? I just think that it should be 50/50 on the attention. I don't know if I should just stop doing what I'm doing and then if he notices something he'll start paying more attention to me. I don't know. I desperately need help.

By the way, we don't kiss in school either. NOTHING goes on in school.