Two Days Ago…
I stood staring at second most popular student next to me and Sora. Not one of my friends since I've known them when we were infants. Tomo and Kaori just started dating and later we were going to have a mini celebration all thanks to my little sister whom was busy cutting out harts and writing in English and Japanese Tomo (heart) Kaori. Sora is very sweet and right with her is the girl whom had a crush on me since first year Eri. She was pretty enough and I was attracted to her in ways I wasn’t yet comfortable physically yet. The way she fits in the school uniform and her buttons loose which may or may not be intentional. I found myself staring at another person with the surprisingly equal lust.
Haruko, smiled at me catching me staring. I felt uncomfortable and my mind couldn’t wrap around the feelings the thoughts the same thoughts I had for Eri. I waived to make mayself a save. He waved back and he turned slightly to talk to the girl he’s been talking to the girl he’s been having a crush on since I could remember. I wanted to wipe the smile off the girls face and I stood I started walking and to safe myself from embarrassment I went and sat between Sora and Eri. Eri’s uniform skirt was high up on her thigh. I gulped I tried helping with the decorating but Sora yelled at me and I stood and I had to walk past Haruko to go to the dorms. His eyes sparkled as he noticed me and smiled.
“Hi Ren.”
I suddenly became shy and I was annoyed at myself for acting this way. “Hey Haruko.”
I walked past and I tried not to cave in with my feeling of wanting to run. Which I did as I was out of eye sight I felt ridiculous. I stood outside hoping the cold would knock some sense into me. The air have the answers. “I don’t get it” I said aloud to myself.
“Don’t understand what?” Haruko asked.
“I’m just really confused about something.”
Haruko shook his head unbelieving “Ren actually confused about something.”
I smiled “Yeah, don’t tell anyone I have a reputation to keep.”
“Oh, you are secret safe with me.” The turned his head a bit and I thought of how sexy that was and I turned quickly looking down at the ground. “I actually came out here to ask you a question.”
“Okay.” I said as in go ahead and ask me tone.
“Why were you staring at me like you stare at Eri?”
“I was not!” I said defensively my heart was racing if I knew I would answer that question I do not know.
“I see.”
I blinked “You see what?” and before Haruko could answer I heard mom’s voice.
“Ren is that you?” And she walked up with Head Mistress Matsuzaka. “Where’s your sister, You two have to come home now.”
“But why?”
“Stop questioning everything just get your sister do as you are told boy.” Mom said she was stressed and I knew not to stand there a one minute when she is in that mood.
I walked passed Haruko and he whispered, “Its okay.” Referring to the confusing previous conversation”
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After getting the news that we were moving to England. I had time to think of the weird feelings I had for Eri and Haruko. Then it hit me with the worse curse you can summon on someone. I bolted right up from my bed and…
“I’m bisexual I can’t be bisexual.”
Then I really freaked.
“I’M CURSED!”
My parents and little sister came to my room. “What is wrong?” Dad asked.
“I’m cursed, I must have done something in my past life or someone has cursed me!”
“Ren, what you aren’t not cursed.” Mom said soothingly
I laughed, “Oh yes I am! I like both sexes! The same as in you and dad love each other. It’s not fair I don’t want this! With my luck I’m not going to be faithful to anyone. If I’m with a man I want to be with a woman or If I fall in love like you and dad I’m going to be in love with both sexes at the same time and I’m going to have to choose and one of them is going to get hurt. I’m cursed, CURSED! CURSED!”
My dad walked up to me putting both hands to stop me his grip was strong but not enough to hurt me he looked me in to my eyes. “Calm down little one” his voice was gentle and clam. “You are not cursed. And you can’t help who you are.” Dad then guided me to my bed while mom on the other side.
Mom touched my face, “Ren, don’t you ever say sexuality is a curse there is no right or wrong here just closed minded people. Don’t let anyone even fellow family members say different. You are our son and we love you and liking both girls and boys is not a curse at all.”
“Don’t worry about true love right now enjoy being a teenager. You got your whole life ahead of you to be worrying about something so petty. It’s not the end of the world son.”
They both kissed my forehead “We love you.” And they left but I heard them say “Teenagers everything is so apocalyptic.”
Sora walked into my room and hugged me. “It’s soo you to be Bisexual to be this way because face it big brother you have chosen not to choose sides. Our parents are spies they pretend to be death eaters but they are really spies and here my brave brother goes against the crowed.” She squeezed me. “Mom and dad are right you are not cursed. It’s just something in you that makes you Ren and I wouldn’t have you any other way.”
The Present
No, I don’t view being Bisexual as a curse anymore and I’m slowly coming to terms with it. Like now there is his really hot chick that kind of looks like snow white and a light brown haired boy whom looks like he’s a 7th year but just as hot as snow white girl. Sora was pouting but eating lunch and I was still scanning people as I have been all morning looking for a friend it could be anyone. I poked my little sister and she squirmed than glared at me.
“Have you seen any potential friends?” I whispered.
“Not yet.” She whispered back.
“You’re not even trying.” I said and stopped the whispering.
“I’m still trying to get used to this place.”
“Mum came here” I said using the British way of saying mom, “She loved it here. I think we should at least give it a chance and perhaps if we get ourselves some friends maybe just maybe well enjoy ourselves better.”
Sora give me her giving up look. “Your right Ren.”
“Come on” I stood, I’ll escort my little sister to her class.” That we didn’t share.
“We don’t even know where it is?”
I smiled. “Which is way we are leaving now to get a head start and if we can get lost together.”
We did get lost but got righted by a fourth year and I recognized a girl form one of my classes this morning and I overheard she had the same as mine so I fallowed her and her friend at a distance to the class to proud to admit I yet to learn where my classes are.
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