I'm exhausted. Long shifts working retail can do that to you. Especially when you have a condition like fibro. Chronic pain and chronic fatigue make it so much worse.
Speaking of work, I'm over it. Really, I am. You'd think working at a toy store would be fun, and it was at first, but eventually you learn it is just as stressful, political, and exhausting as anywhere else. And I'm sick and tired of people acting like they are better then everyone else. Especially when they are not a supervisor/manager and really DON'T have any more power then you do. Ugh.
Dan's depression has been through the roof lately which is making life harder on both of us. More arguments, more things happening, etc. It's so frustrating. But, I do know it's not his fault so I do my best not to get mad at him cuz of it. I just can't wait til the rut he is in gets better. It's wearing me out.
It's been 7 years today since my cousin died. She would be 24 now. I miss her more then anything in this world. She was always such an inspiration, and truly one of my best friends. I can't believe it's been so long now though. There are still times I can't bring myself to believe that she is gone.
Well, I really should be off doing something more productive. My mom is coming to visit tomorrow and this place is a disaster zone. God help me. |