♥ A Birthday Goodbye

08/06/2009

I am home again finally came here on Monday . I will tell you though that was not what I originally planned. I was going to come home closer to Thursday actually but I talked to a friend of mine who said she wanted to come home with me if I picked her up on the way and she would stay with me through the week to keep me company. Well I leave that morning and get half way there and she informs me she isn't coming. I was pissed needless to say, she told me some bull story and said if she got it worked out that night she would come up the following day, says to call her later that night and she would let me know. So I do, she doesn't answer, doesn't call back. I commented her myspace when she was online nothing. Then her status changes to with my bestie, going drinking tonight and six flags tomorrow. Excuse the F outta me? What happened to helping your friend who only came home because you said you were coming with her. I was not ready to be here by myself. The least she could do is have the decency to say something to my face. But that is fine she wants to be selfish and would rather go out getting drunk then own up on a promise I am done. I have watched her walk over and lie to a million other people so I know what she is doing. Deleted her from myspace, deleted her from my phone, I am in a rough spot right now and she knows that and if she is going to be a worthless friend I don't need to deal with her trying to walk all over me or lying to me.

In other news tomorrow is Josh's birthday. It would have been nice to have him a package there but I would have had to sent it a week ago and he didn't want me to send him another one til I get the next ultrasound so that isn't til next week. I guess I can't really say anything, I have to get some stuff for his package as well as the utlrasound before I ship it off on Monday. It usually takes about exactly a week to get there.

Currently I am waiting up online hoping that he takes the few minutes before work to get on and check his email so I can chat with him. His aunt passed away this afternoon and I hate having to tell him because technically over there where he is it is his birthday, not exactly good news but I feel like an asshole if I don't tell him right away either.

I am going to try and sort of reach out to the few people I know and start trying to get out and do things as hard as it is for me. I am not like depressed crying all the time but I just don't have the motivation all the time, I can't lie. But I am going to go to a movie on Friday with an old friend from when I worked at Walmart and then Sunday mom comes so. . . I guess that will keep me busy for a while anyways.

Im out for now. Going to drink a ton so I can go pee in a cup AGAIN in the morning. It's getting really old. Goodnight!

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