Sorry I haven't been around. Obviously I don't think I even remember what the last thing I wrote about was. But I know there has been alot going on this week that I haven't had time to write about.
We were supposed to get company monday night. Josh's friend that used to be stationed here just came home last month from China and was coming through so was going to crash here for a night with his wife and then leave the next day. Surprisingly that turned into all week, they left this morning. It wasn't a bad surprise, just things like that I tend to like ahead of time because I feel like a jerk because we didn't have enough meal type things in the house for four people so I didn't cook.
It was cool though . Sophie his wife is from China and was fun to talk to, she is very open about beliefs and like their way of life over there that was fun. They showed us alot of pictures and things, talked about some of the places they have been . We took her to the Big Bang, that was fun. They got a kick out of her, made her count to 18 in chinese in some song they were singing. It was great. Then yesterday we went to the zoo. Bailey kept asking her after every animal we saw if they ate that in China. Lmao. She has alot more patience then me I probably would have smacked him. We passed the dinosaur ride and I asked her if she wanted to go on it and she stops and looks at it for a second then says that she saw lots of dinosaurs in China... I couldn't help but to bust up laughing.
Work is going pretty good. I am getting a better handle on things and days are going by much much faster which is always a very positive thing. When days drag on I tend to get bored with my job quickly and want to quit lol. But I don't. I usually only work Mondays Wednesdays and Fridays. Well next Monday is Memorial Day and so everyone has the day off and until today no one had asked me to come in on Tuesday to make up for it. So of course I am not going to volunteer. But Lynn asked me to today and so I said yes, she told me if I had plans I didn't have to since it was last minute. I told her I would come in but might leave a bit early. I get home and she calls me apologizing saying since it was Josh's day off she wanted to be flexible because it was her mistake for not asking me til today. She told me to take the day off if I wanted to, or I could work a half day. So I took the half day because me and Josh don't have a day off together for two more weeks. So I was going to eat that one up of course.
So . . . . . Hello Onset of Early Depression and Separation Anxiety
I think over the last two days I have been slowly coming to the realization of his leaving for Iraq. Not that I didn't realize it before. Just it is slowly getting closer and closer and I feel myself getting more depressed. I thought I was going to be okay. That's part of why I got a job. To keep busy. I would be working. Planning a move, and a wedding if I decide I want one. I would be completely overloaded with things to do while he was gone. But I was wrong. We are now actually starting the process of him leaving . Paperwork, shots, personal effects, and our plans for paying bills etc. And its starting to set in. I can't imagine what July will be like. Like last night I went to bed and he stayed up later, I was laying in bed thinking about it and wanted to cry so I finally came downstairs and laid on his lap and fell asleep because I felt like I was too far away.
Sorry for whining. You will probably hear alot of it before he leaves I'll try to keep it on the down low but no promises. And if you don't think you can handle it or understand either leave, be semi sympathetic, or just don't say anything.
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