♥ Make the lie big, make it simple and keep saying it. Eventually they have to believe it.

07/19/2009

So things have definitely gotten easier since being here at Tiffany and Bruce's. There is always people around and the kids so I mean that doesn't really give me alot of time to cry. He is there now officially I can't remember what day he got there but I have talked to him in one form or another every day the last two or three days and he said it should continue like that. So if and when he calls its normally in the morning my time (after he gets off work in the evening there) and then he emails me from work about eleven my time ( when he goes into work in the morning) the time difference is kinda crazy but I guess in this case its working out for the better.

I can tell you that things with his mother finally came to a head. She lied to my face about an email she wrote Josh telling him she knew that I quit and expects me to get a job to pay for my children. Lied to me over and over again even when I told her I could pull up the email if I really wanted to argue it. This is why I filter things from her. She is up my ass constantly. Had I told her about the panic attack or my hemmorage she would have came down here and packed my stuff moving me in with her. She would have made me quit ( or tried ) so again she is sticking her nose into a decision Josh and I made, meddling in our money and finances where she shouldn't be. So I ignored the email and such at first til she asked me about work one day. I asked her what she was talking about she knew I quit because she told Josh that. ( again leaving out the other rest of the email that pissed me off) and she lied to me saying she never said she knew she asked him if I quit blah blah blah ( needless to say I had the email open in front of my face ) so that's where it blew up . I told her I had read it and she continued to tell me that she did not do it, its like pathological liars once caught in it you have no where else to go but to stick with your story. So finally I decided it was going no where and basically told her for the final time I do not appreciate her lying to me. My quitting was a mutual decision between my HUSBAND and I, so that I can worry about my health and the baby I am carrying. I told her not only that but our finances are more then fine I wouldn't have quit otherwise and they are also none of her business. I told her that I would appreciate it if she tried to keep her emails positive instead of worrying him with the petty negative crap that we deal with ourselves since it is our lives. She needs to email him positive things so he looks forward to her emails and doesn't think everything in the world is wrong at the moment. The last email I got from her said that is true, I am sorry I overstepped my boundaries it won't happen again.

I basically dropped my phone right there. I ignored her when it was just the talking behind my back but for ANY REASON AT ALL lying to me is unacceptable. She stuck to her story though even when I said I had the email so there was no use going round and round with the woman and stressing myself out over it. I just told myself that is fine I hope she remembers this conversation because if it happens again after her saying she would stay out of it then she is going to get the ugly side of me. Because in all actuality the messages I sent her were very very nice, just getting my point across compared to what I wanted to say. This whole thing pisses Josh's dad off to no end though because he knows the more she screws it up the further away I become and with me goes the baby and my husband.. Which I would never make him choose, he can have contact but I wont with her . I have no problems with ANYONE in the rest of his family. But if she cannot respect my decisions about my life, my family, even my dog ( if everyone knows the problems when she came to visit) then she will not be taking care of my child either because she will still be doing things I tell her not to. And at the end of our five year PCS in North Dakota we will be moving again and Josh said this time I pick the assignment he volunteers for within reason of course.

So in other news I suppose. I had my ultrasound, there isn't triplets in there. Kinda relieved , I wasn't sure how we were going to do that. But the thing that looked like two heartbeats was blood flow. She told me she is pretty sure I am hemorrhaging in my uterus. It ups the chance of miscarriage but she is confident that with a heartbeat already I will carry it to term. So0o0o0 it was strange seeing the hemorrhage in the ultrasound though , it looks like the same size as the baby almost its crazy. Those of you on my facebook or myspace I put it up there.

I am out for now I guess. Going to go meander around somewhere else but I am sure I will be back around shortly

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