After talking to my boyfriend last night, I finally realized how important it is for me to lose this weight. I may not look like it, but I'm at a very unhealthy weight.
I am currently sixty pounds overweight. A stunning number to me because I never saw myself as that big. And neither has anyone else.
Today I ran for a half hour on the elliptical machine, which burned like 410 calories. I ran a little over three miles. I still have crunches and push-ups to do.
I haven't been eating very good these past couple of days though. I don't have much time to prepare meals, nor the money to buy really healthy foods. Not to mention how stressed out I've been these past few months.
My lease goes up on my apartment next month. We can stay there for the last month, but we have to be out by May. But, we don't make enough money to pay off rent and then another rent payment plus security deposit for a new place. We might move in with a couple friends, just to cut costs. But, he really doesn't want to do that. I've been looking for houses everyday, and I can't find much. But he doesn't help me. And I'm always looking for a job, but he doesn't even try to find one. And, he knows he needs a new one. He doesn't get enough hours working two, and I have to support us. I only work part time at a pharmacy and I'm a full time student. Its too much sometimes. Plus, my parents are trying to get me to keep the dogs, and I really don't want to. I can't deal with them pissing and shitting in the house every time I leave. I can't do that anymore. I got screwed over having to take them, I'm done with it. I've lost so much money because I had to take those stupid dogs. Landlords don't like pets because they make a mess. So, trying to find a place to take them is ridiculous. This is too much.
This week is spring break too. And I am so glad. I need a week to just do nothing. Well, aside from work.
Oh well. Crunches are calling me.
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