Long emotional, depressing day

11/24/2010

Today has been absolutly horrid!! One of the worst days of my life I think. When I had first started writing here I had wrote about how I had found my sons name in the court dockets for being arressted in May for drug posseion, we finally confronted him about it and he told us that it had been sqaushed, well come to find out no so much, it hasn't been squashed, he had a warrent for his arrest and was arrested on the 17th of Nov and has been in jail ever since on a $25,000 bond.

We have been up there 2 times to see him as we don't have the money or the collaterol to place his bond. Well he went to court today for his statues conference, we were told it was at 8:30 am , but that was a lie as every one is told that, you are to show up at 8:30 and wait for your name/ your family members name to be called all the way up till 5 pm.

We got there at 8:30 and waited and waited, Finally around 9:30 a man comes out makes an announcment and tells everyone how things work for the day , he tells us lunch is from 12:10 to 1:30. we sat and watched other people/ family members be called by the lawyers, either go back and sit down or leave. At 11:30 I went and askedthe lady at the desk what was going on, she went and asked the lawyers and came back and said this one is your sons, he hasn't talkedto him yet, will be after lunch befre he can, so ok off to lunch we go, come back and wait 2 more hours, then he comes out finally and is really rushed says your son has a lot to think about he was offered a plea, didn't see the Judge today, these are his new hearing dates, wouldn't tell us shit even though my son said he could, said we had to get the paper work from my son, which I smacked off with how the hell we going to do that when we can't even hold his hand or touch him in jail let alone exchange papers.


my son called tonight, his plea offer was 2 years min and 3 1/2 max if he takes it , if it goe to trail he could get up to 20 years, I am sick sick sick.... I don't know if i can handle this or not

I never ever dreamed my 1st born would be there..... I think it is wine time... I can't type about this anymore