So its been a while since I have wrote on here. I have been an emotional wreck lately, I hate the way my life has been going. I am so ready to move on. I have been working a lot and have literally nothing to show for it besides BILLS. I haven't even bought myself groceries yet and I am broke already. I guess that's what happens when you work for minimum wage right? Well anyway, Josh and I have been getting along so much better the past week, we have had some ups and downs but I am glad we are the right track, we were going to start going to counseling but we can't afford it so we are trying our own things and they have been helping a lot. On the plus side we might possibly be moving somewhere where we don't have to pay rent to save some money, but it will be a half hour drive to work. But we can't even afford to rent a room right now and it is pathetic. Josh's hours got cut, mine stay the same but I can't support both of us.
I haven't really been myself lately. I have been so upset about a lot of things and I can't hide it anymore, being broke is just the icing on top of the shit cake. I wanted to go to school for medical transcription and put aside my passion for psychology because I can't afford to do it anymore, it will take me eight years, which is sixteen for me because I only take two classes per semester. I need a degree I can get in the near future so that if I want to chase my dreams I have the option. I cannot live off of a Wal-Mart pay check anymore.
I have had some pretty good friends over this bumpy course through my life. This is not who I am or how I used to be. I just have been so stressed lately. Things at work have escalated from DRAMA to NUCLEAR WAR. Nobody can seem to get along and if I try to lighten the mood, I get ignored. I don't know what they have to be mad about they make more than I do, they get help because most of them have gets and receive some sort of help from the government even though they probably make over 10 dollars and hour( which is two dollars more than I make) and the ones that don't have children at least they still make that money and only fend for themselves! It drives me nuts that everyone complains how bad their life is. I know that makes me a hypocrite, I do the same thing. But for the most part I try to stay positive and I try to help others out to the best of my ability. I don't care what anyone at work says, they are just trying to bring me down. I don't care if you don't like my friend, who has done nothing to me, I don't want to hear it. And if you don't like me because of that then so be it. You would think a group of 30 year old women would get a long, and then me being the youngest in the pharmacy being 20 years I feel like I am the only one that attempts to make things better(well minus Kelly also). Jealousy is such a terrible thing.
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