I guess i just wanted something way too bad ya know. I kept thinking because i want it I should go after it. I can't figure out why I thought a guy would actually like me. Or could. I'm fine though. I cried it out, got over it. He's not sure how he feels. In my experience that's usually a guys way of saying he's not interested without hurting my feelings. so maybe I'm wrong, maybe he's just not sure. Its too late though, I got sucked too far in to protect myself. Its kinda like regardless of whats going on I'm going to get hurt. I hate being so fucking emotional. i hate feeling things. I'm just a sweet person who wants someone to care about me and love me as much as I do them. I'm just so tired of meeting guys that are really nice and treat me great but then decide I'm not the one for them and leave me to go find some girl that treats them like shit. I will never ever fucking understand it. I am not chasing anyone else, if this one doesn't work out I'm taking a break from guys. I've just learned that no matter how hard I try its fucking pointless, I'm always gonna end up crying my eyes out into my pillow at night alone wishing I wasn't. Oh well, no use getting mad over it, I've always been stupid when it comes to guys.
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