So what's been going on today? Well I had to do laundry because I was out of panties and Austin was out of socks. Its been about 2 weeks since I've washed everything but it might have been longer then that. I washed two loads last week just to get me through work and Austin though daycare until today. So yeah it ended up being 11 loads. So just imagine thats 11 loads at 1.25 a load. Then i had to dry about 8 loads since a lot of my clothes shrink in the dryer and just get hung up instead. So essentially I spent 21.75 on laundry today. That's more than a box of diapers which costs almost 16. Ok so money is an issue at times, not always just sometimes. Its not really an issue right now, i just cringe when I think what i spend in laundry a month. Now that its winter too it'll cost more. It takes a lot more room to wash a sweatshirt than a tank top. Plus Austin is wearing more clothes on certain days. Not only a pair of pants and a shirt but usually either a sweatshirt or a hoodie. So thats just one more thing to take up room. Yeah i know its hard to believe I'm rambling about my laundry. I have a date thing on Saturday. Is it a date? I guess its a date. What do you call meeting a guy and getting to know him for the first time? Maybe its a date. When was the last time I went on a real date? lol shit have I ever been on a real date. Do you have sex on a real date? Because ken and I didnt have a real date until after we were married and i think i was pregnant. Hanging out at scott's with brad and ken playing playstation 2 does not make a date. Moving in with a guy 2 weeks after you meet him, falling in love and getting pregnant then married, yeah there wasn't any dating in there. Ken said he'd keep Austin and I'm hoping he doesn't mess this up. He has a bad habit of making plans on top of my plans. Or getting in a tiff and not wanting to watch Austin because it would help me. Thats happened before as well. Its going to be interesting because if i'm not mistaken this guy doesn't seem to talk much and i just can't seem to shut up. lol jen where the hell are you when I need you. I've been working on cleaning the house. I've managed the bathroom and Austin's room. Its a bitch to clean the living room while Austin is playing in it. I put something away and then he just takes it back out. Trust me thats a pain in the ass. This is the second time I was supposed to drag out the Christmas stuff but didn't. Why didn't I? Cause I'm dreading it, I love decorating for Christmas but i hate having to go through all that stuff. Some of our christmas decorations are on layaway which I'm picking up on monday. Austin's christmas presents are all on that layaway and i'm uber excited about getting them. i guess this year we're just gonna open the stuff we got him together on Christmas eve. ken has austin for christmas this year, its kinda weird actually. not have either of them with me for the holiday. I'm ok not having Ken here ya know but I'm going to be sad without Austin. Its ok though, cause I'm spending a week at Aunt Effie's from dec 16-dec 23. I'm excited about having a week off. School is almost over, just a little longer to go. I start again Jan 12th. I'm taking Survey of economics, personal finance, specialized software, business math, and tennis. Ok laugh it up, i know i can't play tennis but it was either that or weight lifting and I dont want to do weight lifting. I have classes every monday and wednesday so i can pretty much work any other day. not sure when i'm going to fit in going to marion, I might be able to fit it in between classes. I think I'm actually honestly happy today. Its not forced, I don't have to hide my frowns. I don't have to hype myself up on caffeine and hop around ya know. I'm in a really great mood. I've learned through therapy and through that human relations class that how you see yourself is the way other people are going to see you. Your feelings radiate off you like heat and either draw people in or push them away. The happier you tend to be the more people you tend to have around you. When you're not happy, when the depression has taken over people tend to leave you alone unless they are miserable too. Misery loves company as i do very well know. Ken made me so mad today when we were talking, i get so tired of being called a fucking retard and to be talked to like i don't have a brain. i dont understand why so many people think I'm stupid. Its hilarious when they find out I'm not dumb, I dont even play dumb, i just don't play their fucking games. Oh well, I'm going to start on my bedroom, clean sheets always make the world a better place. lol. |
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