Ok this entry is from Tuesday when I got my tattoo done. I posted it on Myspace but never did get it over here.
Ok so Jackie did my tattoo today. I think its awesome! It still needs a little bit of work but after sitting there 1.5 hours/2hours I just couldn't stand the pain anymore. So I'll just have to go back for a second session in 2 weeks or so when its healed. I'm going to post pictures as soon as I get some taken of it. So guess who went with me? Mike. Yea I know weird. Why would the guy who dumped me go with me to get a tattoo and let me squeeze his hand so hard you'd think it was going to fall off? Who the heck knows. Jackie said he seemed nice. Another big shocker is I really like Jackie. Ok thats not so much a big shocker as something I hadn't thought about. Now Jackie is the girl that Ken dated right after him and I split up. Anyway, we had a great time, and I'm hoping that she enjoyed it a little herself. She reads my blogs, which I was kinda surprised to hear about, I didn't realize I had a wide following lol. But I had put everything on private, or most of it anyway so I went ahead and added her to my profile so she can read it. Mike is subscribed to it. People are just not always what we expect. I know this because Ken is a complete dickhead and I never thought that would happen. I think Mike has something hidden inside that he almost wants to let out but he won't and as much as that drives me nuts I don't have any say in what he does or says. I'm tired, this tattoo took a lot out of me today. Plus Ausitn was sick, and he's sick again tonight, maybe its sinuses, maybe its something else, I just don't know. I'm going to call and make him a drs apptment tomorrow. Another thing is sex. I don't want anyone else. I really don't. I want the act of sex but i'm having a hard time letting myself hook up with anyone. And I could, Shannon has been driving me nuts for months now but still I resist. I know other guys, but none of them are Mike. I wish I knew what I did to make him all of a sudden not love me. I guess asking for the truth was more then I could handle. |
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