--- Weird how shit happens ---
So I'm sitting here reading entries from different random people just thinking long thoughts about things that don't seem to matter. Attempting to help all these other people while I myself feel like I'm floating with no where to land. I really need to go to sleep being Austin has been in bed since 7:30pm and I know I have to be up at 6am to go to work tomorrow. Instead I'm sitting here waiting for Lora to walk her dog and waiting for Amber to call me back on the phone. My thoughts are just wandering really, everyone at works keeps saying my mood is off, that I'm out of it. Amber my good friend at work just found out she's pregnant. 18 on her way to college to get her lpn and she finds out she's pregnant. I'm just glad her mom is ok with it and didn't kick her out like we were afraid.
I want a baby. I think that's the issue. I'm listening to my biological clock tick. Which really that's ok, it can tick but there are issues that means it would be totally hard to get pregnant. Plus the lack of lots of other things. Not a stable relationship, haven't finished school, not financially secure. But still its ticking and its getting on my nerves cause I can't pull myself out of this funk since Amber is pregnant. I'm back to working on losing weight. I really need to or I'm gonna go nuts thinking about it. This was a stupid entry but that's just my opinion.
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