Ok so I'm uber nervous. Uber = really fucking nervous. When I couldn't sleep last night I talked to him on the phone which was cool. So I was less nervous and just about fell asleep talking to him on the phone. I had pretty much calmed down ya know. But I woke up this morning feeling like I have a hundred things to do, not sure where to start and am extremely anxious. I mean wtf am i going to wear. Does it matter? I told him to dress casual and probably in a t-shirt since he gets hot and i just about freeze to death. I did the dishes and cleaned the kitchen and yes i see the people who know me well have fallen off their chairs from shock. I hate to clean, there is nothing in this world that could inspire me to ever what to do it except when there is someone coming over. I have to tackle the living room and my room. Depending on how Austin acts I probably won't get anything done except the living room since its very very freaking hard to clean when he's here. Ken is picking him up about 3:30 or 4pm and he should be here around 4pm. I figure I'll shower and stuff around 2:30 so I can get ready and do any last minute wardrobe changes before anyone gets here. I have this fear that he's not going to like me for me ya know. Which is totally lame and stupid because i've been on this kick that anyone who likes me will like me for me because i like myself. I've got this aura around me lately where I've just been really happy and living life ya know. I've just got to get back into the mindset where I can do anything and it'll be all good ya know. Oh well i need to get dressed and run the trash outside so i'll write more tomorrow when I get off work. Wish me luck!! |
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