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silver cynic's Diary
by silver cynic

next entry: supposed to be

sometimes

06/02/2009

sometimes...

i want to be free
and mad and silly and wasteful
and not have to care

i want, secretly want
to go to the parties we disdain,
get wasted, once in a while,
stay up all night,
puke the next morning

yes, i know
of course i know
before you say it
i know
but still i do

fuck
i love you and yet hate you

is this how friendship works
eventually
as we grow out of each other?

i've grown
i don't fit
the constraints you bring

and then i hate myself
because
it's not your fault
and you are everything worthy
noble, strong
what is to hate?

and strangely
no one even knows but me
somehow you hide it
this worthiness
not even that
you shrug it off
wear it lightly

but it falls heavy on me
the one who sees it
and is constrained
fuck
what now?

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Is this supposed to be poetry?

[Lady AnonymousSourceStar|0 likes] [|reply]

welcome

[blondest brunetteStar|0 likes] [|reply]

fiyero and elphabaWelcome to Bloop!! (o:
xoxo

[Lady ElphabaStar|0 likes] [|reply]

yeah, but at least summer is coming for me in three days! haha.

[blondest brunetteStar|0 likes] [|reply]

Welcome to Bloop!
Take care and Have a great day.
Love,
Jess

[JessbabyblueStar|0 likes] [|reply]

Who doesn't? Welcome!

[xo heatherStar|0 likes] [|reply]

fiyero and elphabaRYC:
No problem (o:
I agree -especially when there's so much sun; 'tis so bright and happy!
xoxo

[Lady ElphabaStar|0 likes] [|reply]


Cool, welcome =)

.jessa♥

[immortalized artisteStar|0 likes] [|reply]

strangely...i hear this.

welcome.

[Lady PaganStar|0 likes] [|reply]

welcome to bloop! I liked that. Fits in with what I've been feeling for a long while.

[Kristin with an i|0 likes] [|reply]

Welcome.

Take care.

[[danielle electra.]Star|0 likes] [|reply]

Welcome!

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welcome

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welcome

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welcome to bloop!

[bratpunkyg02Star|0 likes] [|reply]

Welcome. You have a gift.

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