Backround: Was seeing this guy for a month & a half. I realize month & a half isn't a long time to get to know someone. But, at the same time i believe a month & a half is enough to form that intial "i like this guy, even if it's just a little bit". Turns out, i didn't like him - not even a bit. So, i broke it off. This was the first realationship i had in a LONG time. I thought after i broke it off i wouldn't be thinking about him & this clearly hasn't been the case. Its got me thinking maybe i did like him & i just didn't know it? As silly as that sounds. Am pretty sure i would know - once again, silly thought. Or maybe i just miss the idea of having someone again after so long. Am leaning more towards that one. I want to email him - but not sure if that's a wise idea. Wish him a merry christmas & happy new year even though it has passed. Am not sure if that would do more damage though, considering his Christmas is rough to begin with. I pretty much added more fuel to the fire. Also, wanted to just see how he's been. Not sure what to do.
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