I've come to far, to give up now!

08/18/2010

Backround: For the past two years I have worked as an Educational Assistant. The first year was spent juggling four jobs to work out too full time hours & to be able to still be on call for the school. I went to countlelss interviews, which usually resulted in me not having enough expeierence. However, my hard work & persistent finally paid off when i landed a term job. Eventually that term job landed me a permant position in the same school. To top that off, this permant position was EXACTLY what i wanted. It was at a school I was familiar with, the level that i wanted [which, was Level 1 - classroom support], and it was SO close to home! Also, It usually takes awhile for Educational Assisant [same with teachers] to land a permant position & here I was only two years into this field

. I was defiantly grateful & really happy.

Now my 3rd year in this field has started off quite how i pictured it. Their was a slim chance of me not returning to the same school. However, if that was to happen they would have to transfer me to another school. Given the fact that their was other Level 1 Positions open in the school division. If their was no positions i would be laid off & put on a oncall list accourding to senoritary.

Well, i am on that list

. I could handle moving to another school but to have no positions open - that's a shock. I feel like I am back to square one. That everything i worked for has been swiped from under my feet. I know, that's the unrational part of me thinking. The unpatient part of me worrying. Am not back to square one, i now have expierence where two years ago i had zipped. I now have amazing references where two years ago my references barely had to do with the field i was going in. Also, i can apply to different divisions. Nothing limiting me to apply to higher levels. I can't dwell on something that's out of my control. I cant make the school i worked for nor the division i work for have positons open at my level. It all depends on attendance, funding & senoritary [which is not playing in my fav at all, won't be for a bit], which all three are out of my control.The lady said that thier is one position open at SMP for level 1. But, because of senoriaty she had to lay me off because their people with higher senoriaty in that school and in the division that can have that job.However, alot can happen in the first month of school. They could switch people around due to more people coming in or funding going through. That could open a spot for me. Last year they called me the day before school & i worked on call for three months, so that could happen again. I guess, the fact that this field comes with uncertainty and unsecurity dosen't help with my personality. Am hoping with time ill learn to cope with it. If I dont, then i guess this field just isnt for me - which is a scary thought.

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