..There a hole in my bucket dear Elijah, dear Elijah*

Thanks for the comments on the last entry, all are appreachiated =). If you happen to have not comment yet, feel free to go back an entry & do so.


It's like am convincing myself that the last comment from chad may have given it a chance to move from booty call to something more . However, the fact is how can an relationship form when there is no communication inbetween the times we meet. How can an relationship form when their are qualities about him that if i do accept, i feel like am just settling . I will not allow myself to get that desperate -- to simply settle . Also, i think i have realized after the second time we "hung out" i don't do well with booty calls. Not sure why, i have some ideas. One being right now, i want an relationship. With that said It's hard not to look into it deeper -- to want feel more -- for it to have more possiblities then just "wham bam thank you mame". Or the fact that am just an emotional person is getting in the way.


i am going to talk to him next time to meet. To make sure where on the same page, even tho am sure we are


I've been feeling a little down lately.But am hoping that i can turn this frown the right away around very soon.