you can knock my lights out, but I'll still shine
So a lot happened today...
Jinx and I are, will probably date... in the future....
he dedicated the song "There's No one like You" by the Scorpions today, and when I asked him if there was a special meaning behind it, he said "yes, there's no one like you."
I about melted...
Jes talked to him for me, saying we would be cute together and she said to him "I just want you to see what's standing in front of you, before some guy comes along and steals her away"
and he said "that would be no one else's fault by my own."
and she said "would you be able to live with yourself, if that happened?"
and he said "I'm sure I could, it would be really hard to though.."
so deep feelings are there. We just need time.
Maybe when we move in together in November, things will just fall into place.
He's just scared, as am I.
He's just scared of us not working out and us losing our friendship,
which I would never ever let happen if we did date and didn't work out, I would never let us lose that closeness we have already. I love what we have.
Jes: "You always dedicate lovey songs to Autumn, you always have... you two would be perfect together."
Which, is true. He always does dedicate lovey songs to me.
I just need to give it time, things will just happen on their own... we just both need time since we both just came out of shitty relationships. So I understand with him needing time, I don't feel the need to rush into anything so soon. I feel like all I've been doing is going from relationship to relationship...
When really it's because I spent almost 4 years of my life in a relationship.
9 months with Eric.
Then 3 years with Jared.
the most time I've ever been single was 2 months.
and now I'm pushing on 9 months being single.
so I forget what 'being single' feels like, you know?
and I've been trying to fill that void, with just about anything Nothing sexual, just short term relationship wise. But I need to stop that. Because I need to let it find me.
On a better note, Jes redid my front page layout for me :DD
I changed the picture at the top, and added 2 more at the bottom of Jinx and Jes.
Then I added this fucking awesome Taylor Lautner movie clip at the end of my entry layout so I can drool at him :DD
anyway, thanks for reading ♥
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