So, an update..

Jinx and Rissa broke up. Because they felt so bad about hurting me.
Rissa IMed me, and was pretty much 'crying her eyes out' because I'm her 'best friend' and she felt so bad and 'didn't know why she even said yes in the first place.'

Jinx, oh that boy.
Has been feeling SO guilty since it happened, he has not stopped apologizing, or even letting me know that he still feels bad. And of course, I forgive him. He's the best friend I've ever had, that's a guy, at least. I got so sick last night and he never left me alone. He kept texting me and checking up on me. Texted me this afternoon saying 'hey jerk, you feeling better?"

it made me smile :]

But, I'm so glad they broke up. Jinx felt guilty ever since he asked her. and he was like 'I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry I hurt you." and I said "It's fine." and he said "No it's not." and I said "why not?"

and he said "Because you're my very best friend, and it's not okay that I hurt you, aut. I've been so torn about it."

I don't buy that I'm Rissa's "best friend".

I believe I'm Jinx's best friend, because, Well. I've known him for over a year now. and we've grown so close. But, I feel bad because he really does wanna be with Rissa, but won't and refuses to be with her because of me, and my feelings. Which means a lot to me, but I feel that he has the right to be happy. So after me being a huge pain in the ass. I tried getting them back together, but both Rissa AND Jinx are so fucking stubborn...I gave up...

they're stubborn because they don't wanna hurt me.
But, he seems to be doing better.

And everything is back to the way things were before.

:]

last night was absolutely horrible for me.
I was puking ALL night.
It was food poisoning. I almost went to the ER, but my mom convinced me not to go. And I did NOT move from my couch all day, my Gramma was watching me like a freakin' hawk.


But, I'm feeling better :]