I had plans to come back here a long time ago, but hmmm... anyway i am still alive, but i know i am different... I have become more anti-social. but its the only way i feel that i can keep my heart and mind out of trouble and hurt. I do still have friends, even if they are few. But I just don't try to gain the things people claim, like love.... I have not given up, i have just stopped trying. I am not going to worry about it, I will just let it ninja kick me in the head or something. Anyone that's read my past stuff already knows that i have suffered a lot in that area. I figure that it would better to let a woman find me and learn me, because then maybe she may be more realistic about liking me!
Well I have finally got out of my sister's kid watching trap, even though i still watch them sometimes but now it's by choice and not some trick like she use to do. I can say that now i find time to go out sometimes, and even do things like draw and write sometimes. I can say that I can be happy a lot of the time. i still am peepy and cheerful and try my best to kick all the negative gain that people seem to swim in. I do sometimes get blah but I still try to work through it.
I will try to stick to this because i have to do anything that keeps my mind rolling! with the nudge of a good friend, we have a forum site made for a guild I run on the game Mabinogi. I have plans to spill all my knowledge on that game in this forum site. I am trying to get my guildies to join in but i think my friend Emily may be the only one. http://hitomontarlach.forumotion.com/forum |
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