I have been thinking about a lot of my past years,,, thinking of the few people i trust boldly... trust has become a lie to me... a trick word used to pull you close... Do you hear me... i am becoming paranoid.... or am I? i am not sure but in the last 5-6 months so much betrayal from my friends and the people i thought loved me... it's like the only ones that I can trust are those that have been in my life for over 12+ years. I have become rather rude to some people, others have not seen me in a long time and they must not care because they would have sought me out in worry like some of the ones that care do. I have be come blunt and realistic and say things that could be mean if they were not the truth. more so in conversations about love and relationship. its funny how people get mad at me, but if it were so hottie they would love them more, because people love rudeness and such. well not everyone but it seems like it... For you few that read my words, what would you do in that kind of haze? and does this make sense for me or am i getting paranoid. I wonder if i need help or am i doing alright coping? |
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(PS random noter, I am.)