Why do people tell you that you are such a great person that can make someone happy someday. I am so sick of hearing that, i am tired of being told how great I am by people who won't give me a chance. it feels even worse when someone actually spends tons of time with you and gets you hook just to toss you off the train with that same line just when you know they were someone you wanted.
It's bad enough that i am still dealing with my break up, but then i got stupid and got hooked into a girl that was being there for me, picking me up. I can't say I loved her, it's too soon, but i liked her a lot and she helped me not think of my ex. but suddenly she just stops talking to me and tells me she lost interest. hmm that's kind of sudden being that I just licked and kissed your whole body the night before (she invited me to her house) but whatever...
This stuff happens to me so much that i am starting to thing something is wrong with me, it has to be, there is no way that so many people get to know me, then just suddenly lose interest and it all just be bad luck every time... maybe I am doing something that they don't like but wont say nothing about. and the last few just cut me off and say nothing. even my ex, but she was cheating on me and telling some people i cheated on her and some had no idea i existed until I went to them to find her, because i knew where she was.
more than anything I wish people would tell me whats going on. and stop being heartless ninja about stuff. stop telling me you like me if you really don't.
there are times where I feel like being a really bad to women. I seems crazy but it seems that a lot of women love being mistreated and seem to complain about it to men who would gladly make them happy. but will never be good enough for them. I mean what do you have to do to get a chance? slap you around and call you out of your name? it seems that trying to get to know you and have fun with a lady seems to always result in the whole "you are like my brother" speech that i am also growing tired of. stop taunting with your sexiness it is meant for some douche bag that would never see your true beauty.
I am getting mad... I really am... and I am not even the type to get with a girl for just sex so I can't really do the whole sex only stuff... I like to really get to know a girl, because I figure that if you really want to get to have a future with someone you need to like more then just their looks. I just feel like giving up. I was about to before and this girl that helped me a bit after my break up rolled in. the funny thing is that she did something to me like this 7 years ago. but we were younger then. too bad the bloop massacre happened, I could have pointed you to the poem I wrote about our romantic night and the day she left me confused.
I am just tired of the tricks and games and shame on me for giving this girl another chance to be in my life. |
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