Never give up hope <3 Long story! | 05/06/2010 |
Just so Lost : Its a melancholy day for me today. So much stuff running through my mind. Can you catch up?
This is a Long Story
*- << So a couple days ago, my boyfriend and his friend came to my house late at night. They rushed me out the door like i have to talk to you ( first thing came to my mind was Leo was breaking up with me ) but i thought wrong. They asked me if i could tell all these girls around here = Teenagers. To stop going to there house. There boss is starting to get a little mad because the guys are so much older. I would be too, That is why i stopped going over there 2 weeks ago because little kids was following me over there and i don't want NO problems. So yesterday i told all of the girls to leave them alone and they understood, but that wasn't their intentions to go over there for " Guys " we usually play baseball or hangout listening to music but those girls ruined it for me BIG TIME. Like I'm grown, and i can't come over there because other girls was going over there a lot and got you in trouble type deal? What about my man? Leaves me at home wondering now if he still wants me.. No call yesterday no show. was outside riding 4 wheelers and drinking some beer waiting for him to see my face and run up to me and hold me but that never happened. All that time outside waiting for nothing. What should i do????? Can someone tell me please. I'm just confused i thought he LoVeD me? Maybe I'm thinking wrong! I go way over my head sometimes. I guess ill sit at home today in my dark corner waiting to see if he still cares! He will show if he does if he doesn't than i think im starting to get the hint.... But all i asked is not to get Hurt again, just happens to me all the time. That's why i gave up until i met him he makes me SMILE bunches and my heart goes Pitter-Patter when he is around. When i think of him i get goose bumps and funny feelings in my stomach. Like really im hoping he won't do anything like that to me. But guys are like that they will squish you like a bug. So <<< CrOssEs FinGerS >>> he won't guess we have to wait and see.
*** You will never believe *** The woman i babysit for after she was dropping me off last night, she was really wasted drinking vodka, and i wasn't kissed me and was trying to make out with me?? Like i finally found someone i truely care about and you doing this to me. I don't want you sweetie, you got four kids at home and a man who helps you raise them. He might be an ass and don't give you good SEX but he's still there for you there's no one else that is........ I just hope Leo didn't walk next to my house and seen that cause that would shatter my Whole universe. Hard core. So i think I'm staying in the house for awhile so people will stop getting the wrong idea about me. I'm a good woman, i raise my child on my own i help my parents i feed a family of 5. Going to school, and start talking to my dad life's coming together for me slowly but surely i don't want someone to ruin everything i worked so hard for. We only have one life to live right???I just feel so lost today. I guess I'm in need of a friend that i don't have here. All my friends are back home and i have no one really to share my deep feelings for.Just prey with me everything will be okay.
Love & Rockets : Jewelz
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