"Every breath, I want you to know I'll be there. There's just one more thing, one request. I want you to take me with you. Take me with you. I will never let you down.... I will love you now and forever."
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My best friend had apparently run out of money, and he and his roommate barely had enough for food. I made the mistake of telling my mother this, and she sent me straight to the ATM to take them some money to hold them over until they were paid tomorrow. My family has literally adopted him without either of our knowing or having much of a choice in it. He tried to tell me no, but my dad was in the car, and told him to take the money and get himself lunch tomorrow. We all know how it is to suffer through monetary woes, and we would do anything for him. Especially me. If I have the means, I WILL take care of him as best I can.
I can remember once before when he had the flu.... he did not want to admit he was ill, and I could not get his fever to break. He wouldn't listen, so I ran (I was living with him at the time, with no vehicle of my own) to his mother's house and spoke with her to see if she had any medication. I nursed him back to health, without a reason. We were not dating, we were not together. I just knew I had to take care of him. Within a day and a half I had him back on his feet and his strength regained.
I'll never forget, the man who was so strong.... looking at me so helplessly and not knowing exactly how to thank me. I would have been nowhere else if I had the choice.
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My husband has kind of been sickeningly sugar-sweet to me and I do not trust it. He was not acting this way before his female best friend cancelled plans on him. After his facebook freakout, he added a bunch of random females I have never seen before to his profile and I have no access to it now. This does not bother me as he wishes it did. He also changed his profile picture from one of him and myself to one of him alone wearing his ex's scarf. This is also not getting to me.... though I find it funny.
My heart has drifted so far from him, it nearly amuses me to no end. I suppose because this happiness I feel cannot be ruined by him anymore
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I have the money now to get the divorce, and will have enough to hire an attorney in approximately another month, so that stress is off of my shoulders.
This weekend will be a beautiful one, for I am again spending it with my best friend. I cannot help but smile even thinking about it.... I am so happy when I'm around him that everything else melts away. I do not stress anymore, I just live for the moment and I live for the smiles and happiness we have. The most stress I have involved with him is when we play online against people in Left 4 Dead. That should tell me and everyone something.... haha.
We have to shop for Halloween costume supplies this weekend, as well, and start getting them together. I have to make his roommate's costume of Two-Face. I am making the facial appliance with faux teeth so that it is comfortable for him to eat and talk and drink if he wants to when we're out and about. We're entering a Halloween costume contest, and it seems like it is going to be ridiculously fun. I am so excited. This will be the first chance I've had to actually make everyone's costumes and enter a contest. We may not win, but that does not mean that I will be any less attentive to detail! By the way - the group is going as the Joker, Harley Quinn, Two-Face, and Scarecrow. All in formal wear instead of the usual. It should be interesting.
My best friend has begun to tell me he loves me, without second guessing himself. Saying it as easily as it is said from me. For some reason it means far more to me than I thought it would. It lifts my heart and makes me smile to no end.
Things are finally looking up, and I could not be happier. |
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