a non-NoJoMo freewrite

So here i am.. freewriting. I haven't done this in so long. So there's a red squiggle under freewrite. I'm kind of sad. It would make a really cool compound word. I wonder if this is a form of meditation. Lindsay and I were talking about meditating the other day. I can't do it. My brain does not shut off. It really keeps on going and going and going. There are always a billion thoughts just swimming around up there. Some of them are frantic and nuts. Others are chill and cool. Others are happy and elated. It's a lot going on up there in my head. Sometimes it has a mind of it's own. I try to focus on all the happy ones and let the negative ones just swim around in my mental peripheral vision. I know they're there. And I have to keep an eye on them so they don't start thinking for themselves. I forgot where I was going with this. I had to read back a few sentences violating my "don't stop writing" freewrite rule. Andwho, meditating. I can't meditate. But Lindz mentioned she was getting into drawing again.

I'm so excited for her. I met Lindsay my very first day in 10th grade when I switched schools. It was my third period class, ASL (American Sign Language). Which at that time, it was block scheduling, so it was the second period of the day. I didn't know anyone. The desks were set up into groups that my ASL teacher called families. (i think probably one of the first signs I learned). I can't remember if the seats were assigned, or I just picked a random one but Lindsay was in my family. And we still say that to this day that she is family *does ASL sign for family*. And I felt like I wanted to be friends with this girl. She was awesome.

I forgot where I was going again. Drawing. Meditation. So since the day I met her, Lindz has been drawing. I used to seriously spend hours just watching her draw. It was mesmerizing. She told me that she was getting back into it again. I'm so excited for her. Life kind of takes us away from the things we love sometimes. She said that drawing is her form of meditation. She cant shut off her mind either, but to focus it on just one thing, she chooses drawing.

I feel like that's what I do with writing. I am so excited about this novel I'm writing now. It's probably a load of crap, and I will accept that realism with dignity. I'm just excited about unleashing some creativity. Maybe it's why I've been in a better mood lately. I've almost done nothing but write for about a month now. NaNoWriMo came at at great time this year. lol.

I heard there is a kid version of NaNoWriMo. My cousin up in IA uses it with her students. If I'm still at that school next year, I want to introduce the director to it, and see if she would be open to doing it. We'll see.

Speaking of the novel, I should get back to it. It's not going to write itself.

peace!
-mel-