have to rant.

10/13/2014

Time: 4:46am

State of Being: a little angry. okay a lot angry

Song lyric in my head: you got it you got it bad
current desire: to let go of this anger and go back to sleep

where am I?: in the bedroom on the bed

what's that noise?: the fans




so i woke up having to run to the restroom, and now I can't call back asleep. Another form of insomnia lol. I keep replaying in my head an encounter with a customer yesterday at the pharmacy. He REALLY got my blood boiling. To the point where I can't sleep. Which is dumb. I shouldn't let it affect me. Borderline ridiculous, but I can't seem to shake it, so I figured I'd write about it.

So yesterday, the pharmacy is open from 10-6. I was under the impression that I'd be working with this old pharmacist named Pete. Pete's a sweetheart, but he's pretty slow. And it was going to be him and me until 2 when my cashier comes in. To my surprise, Tamika, another pharmacist shows up. I haven't worked with Tamika in so long. She's awesome! AND on top of that, the store gave me a cashier, Nelly. woo-hoo! I earned some kind of Karma points. lol. though I probably lost them yesterday with that dude.

So anyway, it started to get really busy. The line was pretty long. And here comes this couple who are regulars at the pharm. The wife is really nice, but the husband has issues. They came to pick up her meds. So it started out that she had five, but only wanted two of them. okay cool. whatever. unfortunately for them, they had to step out of line so i can redo the paperwork, which takes a couple minutes. I got that done, and I let them jump the line to get rung up. THEN she pulls out a coupon card for one of her prescriptions. Time to redo the paperwork again. So they step out of line. I process the card, redo the paperwork, then have them jump the line again to get rung up.

So they leave for a few minutes, then the guy comes to the drop off window. "I am NOT going back in that line and waiting another half hour. You are going to ring me up for my Allegra-D right now." Of course I'm taken back. I ask him if he's really ordering me to ring him up. He said "Yes. I am ordering you to ring me up." what the fuck! Then he went off on Nelly saying she can't do her job, and asked to talk to my supervisor. ugh! whatever. To avoid that drama, i ended up ringing up up anyway at the other register. He's going off on how I don't know the shit he dealt with. yadayadayada. I told him I didn't appreciate being cussed out. But anyway, i grab the Allegra-D box, and ask for his driver's license. He didn't have it. And ran to get his wife. She came with hers. Trying to be the better person, I apologized for making him angry. Though I told her that he seems to have a temper. Because he does. I honestly fear for that woman. Because he's a dick.

Had he came to the window, and asked me nicely. "listen, I'm really sorry. It looks like your busy, but I just left the line, and I forgot to ask for Allegra-D. Is there anyway you can get that for me? The line is really long." Of course I would. In a heart beat. I don't mind helping anyone out at all. But you come to my window and order me to do something, fully admit you are ordering me to do something for you. Insulting the girl at the register helping me out and threatening to talk to management. About what? I don't know. But that's too much drama. Because in wal-mart, they'd end up giving him a $25 gift card, because of course he's in the right. Because we cater to those that whine, cry, and pull a temper tantrum, reinforcing that behavior with free money! He doesn't know that, so it looks like I just backed down and followed his orders.

ugh! I'm stewing in anger and I can't stop. and I keep replaying the things I should've said, and how I should've handled the situation better. I'm also mad at myself for reacting that way. I really do try to be a good person. But wal-mart has a way of just slowly sucking my soul.

The anger also branches out to knowing that I'm stuck at that place for a while. Russ said I can quit as soon as he gets a full time job. So it's going to be a while. Plus even if i do quit, come summer time next year, I won't have a job. I'm part time at the school, not salary. Unless my DJing company finds me some permanent gigs a few nights a week. That would be cool. lol.

anywho, I've tried to talk it out. I'm going to try to go back to sleep. I haven't succeeded yet in convincing myself how ridiculous I am to be carrying around this anger. Why let this dude cause me even more negativity? He already has control issues, and even when he's not in my presence, he's winning.

Russ for some reason went to go out in the living room to sleep. I think I woke up him coming back from the bathroom. lol. then my thoughts started to take the best of me, and I couldn't fall back asleep.

Poor Russ has to work about 18 hours tomorrow. well..today.. starting in a little less than 4 hours. He's going to be at my store working on a new gift card display thing. He's gotta be there until possibly 4 in the morning. So I'm going to drop in off at the store a little before 9, come home, head to school. After school, i might take the car back to him so he can take me home and have the car for himself. That part hasn't been figured out yet.

I'm off work at wal-mart today. My cashier, Dwennifer, and I switched schedules, because she needed Tuesday off. Something about an old friend being in town. Which i cool. I get a monday off. woo-hoo!

okay. I'm going to try to grab a couple more hours of sleep. And I was SO looking forward to a full night too. lol. I even went to bed before midnight. It's amazing!

peace!
-mel-
5:14am