Time: 11:01pm
State of Being: chill
Song lyric in my head:is there anybody going to listen to my story..
current desire: to direct a play
where am I?: in the living room on the sofa
what's that noise?: trailer for the Jane Austin Book club. Just put in Across the Universe.
I really miss theatre. I'm not sure whether it's on an unhealthy level yet. But it's been.. 5 years since I graduated college. That's a long time without being on a stage. I just finished up my classes in the Teacher Certification Program. (all As btw) I still have yet to take the state exams. Subject Area and General Knowledge. My temporary certificate expires in October of this year. After I pass the exams, they have to watch me actually teach in a classroom. I have to send my portfolio (what I've been working on the entire program) to the Florida Board of Education, then do an exit interview, then I could be awarded my Teaching Certificate. So I have all summer to study and take the exams. The only problem is that they are $200 dollars each, and if you fail you have to pay and take them again. so studying=thumbs up.
But it isn't a great time to attempt teacherhood. With budget cuts and all that other political jargon. Especially in Theatre. I may attempt my certificate in English too. Maybe teach creative writing or something.. I don't know. All I know is that I really want to teach. And I can't want to do it. I'm so tired of the pharmacy. It is so much negative energy. About 10% of my patients are decent people. If they aren't sick, they're cranky. if they're cranky and/or addicts. It's good money. I'm making more now than I have at another other job I've had. It's just not my scene.
So about my previous current desire.. as soon as I got to bed, it was achieved. hehehe..
let's see. positive notes..
I love Russ. So much. Love is so fun. Do you realize that as of may 18th this year, we would be together four years. It's amazing. I definitely can't wait to be married to him. Not that we pretty much aren't already. But yeh. maybe I just want that wedding. lol. He's got to get that divorced first. If it didn't cost $400, and SHE wasn't insanely hard to reach and unable to put down for some of it, then it would've happened years ago. It sounds so weird when I explain to people that he's still married. lol. But it's just a piece of paper. There's no spiritual connection what-so-ever. She ran off with a guy she met on WoW. LoL! then in the past four years since Russ and I have been together, got engaged, then, had his baby, then left him to move back home to Florida. lol. I can't remember what state she was living in before. oh well.
I don't know why I've been thinking a lot about getting married. We're not OFFICIALLY engaged or anything. But we both know it will happen eventually. I guess I really want that moment of engagement, then the wedding. I guess it's nice to have things to look forward to. I dunno. Then eventually babies.. I can't wait to have kids.
If this teaching thing doesn't work out, I'm definitely going to bug Russ to help me pop out babies earlier. hehehe. The first month we were together, we were wandering around wal-mart. I don't remember how the convo came about, but I turned to him and said "I require babies." LoL! he said "I would love to have babies with you one day." "No. I require babies before I'm 25. I've always wanted kids before I'm 25." "Well.... that I can't really promise.." "30? Please before I'm 30." "Okay. that MAY be possible." LoL! I was 23 at the time. So young..
I miss bloop. I miss talking out my thoughts. It's nice to have some kind of pseudo internet. Even though it's slow. lol. Tethering my 2G connection to my computer still gets me to Bloop.
So I just worked 8 days straight. At least I get overtime. And now I am sipping on wine and watching Across the Universe. One of my favorite movies ever. I mean a whole musical with Beatles music directed by Julie Taymore, with amazing singing and acting choreography and cool tripping colors. Amazingness. Highly recommended.
Anywho.. I believe I'm done blabbering on. Catchya next time.
-mel-
11:26pm
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