Time: 4:05pm
State of Being: chill
Song lyric in my head:
current desire: no more retail, world peace
where am I?: Barnes and Nobles. (wifi!)
what's that noise?: random book store/starbucks noises
so firstly a thank you to Barnes and Nobles for providing me free wifi. Seeing as how I have no internet or tv at home, I fear I live a sheltered life. Barnes and Nobles is now my new escape. And starbucks toffee mocha frap=greatness..
anywho. let's see..
I'm still at Wal-Mart. Back in the pharmacy. It's a good motivation to keep excelling in school because I really don't want to do this for the rest of my life. No way. Being a pharmacy tech is a good plan B incase I can't find a teaching job. And it pays decent money. But it is not where I want to be. I really don't like it.
I'm going to be done with the Teacher's Certification Program by the end of this year. Hopefully next year I'll have my own Drama classroom. I really hope so.
What else. Meghan's pregnant and married. fun times. She's due the end of November. so excited! I love new mini humans to spoil. I keep telling her, I'm turning her kid into a hippie. One of the first things I'm going to teach him is the peace sign.
Jillian (Jilly), one of my greatest friends ever, escaped back home to florida from her asshole boyfriend with her baby a couple months ago. Let me tell you how much I love that kid. He's so adorable. And soaking up more and more knowledge every day. He's ...*counts* 4 months old now? I think...
My college roommate, Christina got married last month too. I drove up to GA for the wedding.
My old roommate and might as well be brother, Lew got married too. He lives up in Oregon now. Russ went up for his wedding to be a best man. We've now decided Oregon is our future home. When Lew moved up there last year, the first thing he said was "MEL! this place is you! I mean seriously. You would fit in here so well. Everything is you!" When Russ went up there, I asked him if Lew was accurate (because he's an exaggerator at times) he said he loved it up there, but I would probably love it better. I asked him if it's now in our top list of future homes, and he said yes if not directly on top. So watch out Oregon! Here I come! It's okay. You got plenty of time to hide. It won't be for years.
Everyone's getting married and popping out kids. I feel like I've been saying that for years. I'm getting scared I'm holding unnecessary resentment. I'm so happy for my friends. More than you can believe. I think I just want a wedding. lol! I'm pretty much already married to Russ. If divorce wasn't so damn expensive, he'd be divorced now and we'd probably be at least engaged. (to those tuning in. or if I left out random details in my few but meaningful posts, Russ was estranged from his wife way before I met him. which was over three years ago) And I really do want babies. So much. I'm well aware we're not financially ready. And I'm just about to start into my true career hopefully next year. But I can still want. At least I have my friends' babies to oogle over. We'll get there eventually. Just waiting my turn. Russ randomly mentions us with a family every once in a while when we casually talk about possible future plans or jobs. So he knows it's going to happen too. I'm just impatient. lol
not sure what else to talk about.... oh.. I completely got screwed over in my after school teaching job. Worked my butt off for her only to disappear and not answer calls or texts. Owing me over $750. .. finally talked to her last week. the business went under. She's in debt, and and take a number if I'm going to press legal action because everyone else is, and she's going bankrupt. .. I've finally let go of it.. mostly. I'm more believing the conclusion that I'm never going to get my money, and she was a lying bitch. As everyone around me is telling me. It sucks. Because I thought she was a good person, and a friend. I like believing in the best of people. So I'm going to have to let it go. There's no point in wasting energy on it. At least I got my experience in teaching. That's what I'm going to look at it as.
wow. I've typed a lot. I miss this.
I miss everyone. I really do. I'm never going to stop apologizing for my absence.
peace!
-mel-
4:33pm
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