Time: 10:14pm
State of Being: i dunno. I feel like a rainbow of different emotions/states of being.
Song lyric in my head: this land is my land
current desire: to quit wal-mart. to have a baby.
where am I?: in the living room on the couch
what's that noise?: silence at the moment. I usually have some kind of background noise, but i think silence is comforting right now.
I should be making science quizzes for my middle and high schoolers right now. They have quizzes tomorrow. The middle schoolers are studying climate zones and the desert. My highschoolers are strudying air masses, fronts, lows, and highs. .. I have a confession. Weather confuses the hell out of me. And I feel so bad, because I know my highschoolers are suffering, because I can't explain it as well as I could the previous topics. When I study weather with the middle schoolers, the books are so much easier to understand. Not that the high school book is complicated. It's just the topic of weather. Last week, I made the quiz open book and open notes. The kids still didn't do so well. I need to figure out something. The internet as been down in the classroom since a few weeks before spring break. I can't show them pictures or play videos. I sometimes use my phone to show them things, but it doesn't work as well. I don't want their grades to suffer just because I'm not doing my job as a teacher. I have no science background. Well except for my alto-ego, the pharmacy technician that works nights at the retail hell hole of wal-mart. I'm so tired of being yelled at by people. I'm so tired of my district manager threatening our jobs on a daily basis driving my pharmacy manager mad with so many things to do and so soon deadlines to do them by.
I had my wisdom tooth extracted monday the 16th. My bottom right. .. backstory: my tooth had been KILLING me. to the point where I couldn't sleep. I couldn't concentrate during the day. It was annoying and maddening. My spring break from school was that week of monday the 9th. I had off wal-mart tuesday the 10th and thursday the 12th. I was going to spend those days relaxing and getting stuff done around the house. My biggest thing was just SLEEPING IN. I wanted to sleep in so badly. My only day off of the week from most jobs is Saturday. Now I have three. THREE days off. It was just too good to be true. Yup. It was such an awesome thought. My tooth was hurting SO bad that I decided to go to the dentist on Tuesday to get it extracted. I knew there was some kind of cavity somewhere and I wanted it gone. Tuesday was the most logical day. I had it off. I could go in the morning, and sleep the rest of the day. Maybe party just a bid on Tuesday night for St. Paddy's day. (my favorite holiday EVER) So I researched places around the county that took people without insurance for very cheap/free. Yup. Still insurance free. Russ tried to sign us up, but that day the site froze, and we're somewhere in ACC limbo in the middle of an application. So I found the county health dept. They do emergency extractions. sweet. DJ at the pharmbox told me that I should get there REALLY early. They only take 7 emergencies in the morning. They open at 8, but get there by 7, because people will line up. Okay. Monday night: I was so anxious about the dentist visit that I did not sleep. Complete all night insomnia. No sleep. None. Sleepless. Okay no big deal. I tapped into my inner all-nighter instincts. If I learned nothing else from college, it was how to survive the day after not sleeping and still have to process an entire semester exam. Good times. ORR I can blame living two hours from Orlando and many theme park days spent without a minute of sleep due to excitement the night before. .. so needless to say, I have mad all-nighter surviver skills... Except I was in pain. Lots of pain. Slight crankiness had ensued..
So I ended up getting there at 6:30 in the morning. There was people hanging outside the building already. Fun. We stood around and waited a bit until the doors opened at 7. Everyone walked in and scattered. Regulars. I had absolutely no idea where to go. I ended up following the majority of the people. About 70% of them went to the left to a big long line. After standing there a bit.. maybe five minutes, I just didn't feel like I was in the right spot. I took a risk and left the line. I saw a sign with "Dentist" and an arrow, and I figured it would be a good idea to follow that. There was a large group of chair set up in rows like a waiting area with a security guard sitting up front. I asked her if i was in the right spot and she pointed me to a door. I entered inside to find a room with chairs all along the wall and a closed window up front. There was no one else inside so I sat down and waited excited that I was the first one there.
After a while people started trickling in. 8:00 The window opened. No one got up, so I decided to stay where I was. A man came through the door and went straight to the window. I heard him make an appoitment. After he left, I decided to get up to go to the window. I was the first one there. It made sense I would go to the window first. No one else was getting up anyway. So I talked to the lady. She asked me the issue, wrote things down and asked what insurance i had. I told her I didn't have any. She said she couldn't take me. The location that took non-insured patients had moved. I took the picture of the sign with the address and phone number and left feeling annoying tears start to gather.
Russ had dropped me off expecting to pick me up in about four hours. It was 8:00 and he went to work. I had to sit outside on the bench. I called him up and told him what happened, and he said he'll be there in a half hour to get me. I called up that other place that takes non-insured patients. They said they could not do any more emergency extractions that day, and I should have gotten there earlier. After I hung up, the lack of sleep, pain, and the frustration of the morning got to me, and I started crying. Outside and in public. I'm good at holding in tears. I am. A couple trickle out, but not much. And I time them right so no one could see. But what I cannot control is snot. It's humiliating. It just pours out. It's one of my biggest enemies in life. Snot. On myself. On others. It's disgusting. Even talking about this and creating this unnecessary visualization is just wrong. Anyway Russ got me a half hour later and we started driving down south.
He was taking me to the place where he got his tooth pulled when it started to rebel a few years ago. On the way, we made some phone calls, but no one would take non-insured patients. And those that did already filled their emergency quota that day. So the place down south is about an hour away. maybe 45 minutes. It's a church clinic, mostly spanish speaking, but there was a diversity of patients. When we got there, we found that they had met their quota. She gave me a paper with a weekly schedule of the days and times they are there. My next logical day would be Thursday, my next day off.
======breaktime... It's 11:02pm... I need to get something science related started. I didn't realize I was going to type so much.. lol.. 11:03pm============
well that was a long break. it's now 4/12 at 1:15am
sooo what was I talking about? oh the tooth thing. fun!
all the while that day on tuesday, Kelly was texting me wanting to fill in for her to DJ and host Trivia at Ale House. I wasn't sure if I was ever going to get my tooth pulled that day because we called and drove around. But I ended up filling in for her Tuesday night. (St. Patrick's Day night) It was so much fun. and I really missed it. I love being on the mic. Russ helped me keep score, which was good, because I wouldn't be able to keep up with all the teams. It was pretty busy. And I was kind of rusty, because it had been a while since I hosted a trivia night.
So fast forward to Thursday... (omg this is such a long story. now I'm obligated to finish it. lol. I'm trying to nutshell it as much as possible.)
Russ and I get to the church clinic place before 6 in the morning. I'm tired/brain dead. I have not eaten or drank any coffee, because I heard you shouldn't before a tooth pulling. And I had about 2 hours sleep that night. I was finally seen at 9. They took an X-Ray. At 9:15, she said that they couldn't do anything, because the cavity and infection were in my wisdom tooth and they didn't have the tools to take it out that day. A dentist comes in once every couple months to do wisdom teeth and it so happens that his next day was that following monday. They gave me an RX for antibiotics and some motrin (not anything great. I have advil at home. ugh) and I left still in agonizing pain, completely tired and starving, and I had to stop by my pharmacy to drop off my script and talk to my boss about getting that monday night off.
When I dropped off the RX, Robin was at the window, and Janet came up. I told her what happened and she said that I wouldn't be able to get Monday night off. I could call out, and that would count as an absence, but it would basically screw her, because I was the only closer. Needless to say my lack of sleep and lack of cofee (which helps bring out logical skills) caused me to start crying. I said okay. Robin said hold on and she went to go talk to Janet. She came back and said that she's going to take my shift for me. Robin. Taking a shift. That's a HUGE rarity for her. Especially since she refuses to close and work most weekends. And this would have her working a 13 hour day. I was blown away by that awesomeness. .. It just meant that I had to work that Tuesday night instead.
Fast foward to monday. which was teacher planning day at school, so I went in early and left early. And got to the clinic around 12:00. my apt was at 1. But I didn't get seen until 3. And then I was out by 3:15. It was super fast, and honestly a little traumatic. I'd rather not divulge details so my future self is spared from reliving said events. There were drills and chisles and hammering. all inside my mouth with my cheeks being uncomfortably stretched in all directions. The dentist and his assistant were both hovering over me with their fingers in my mouth. I would have to compare the experience to being abducted and experimented on by aliens. The hovering. Then his eyebrows got all concerned-like. He might have been concentrated, but it kind of freaked me out. But yeh. They were done in 15 minutes. I even got an RX for some good pain meds. Which I really needed later that night after the novacain wore off. I dropped off the script after we left. And I bribed Russ to pick it up for me later that night. But he wouldn't let me bribe him. I love my husband. He bent over backwards for me that week. With the making special mushy food, and the waiting on my needs.
So Tuesday was the first day back for the kids after spring break, and it was an interesting day. My cheek was still pretty sore, and I couldn't really smile. Of course, the kids immediately accepted that challenge. My principal was flabbergasted that I even came to work, but I couldn't afford not to. Then after school, I had to work at the pharmacy. It was a long painful day, but I survived. I love icepacks. They were my friend most of that week.
So now that painful tooth is gone. woo-hoo! My mouth is back to normal, but I have this funky hole where my tooth used to be. I'm so paranoid about food getting stuck in it. lol.
So that was the tooth drama.
Okay, time for quick nutshells of recent events. There's really not many.
A woman I've known since I was a kid passed away friday from ALS. Marianne was so amazing.
anywho, this entry is getting way too long to fit anything else in. And I think my insomnia may be coming to an end.
I have pharmbox duty tomorrow morning at 10.
peace!
-mel-
1:47pm
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