News #1! I'm on vacation! woo-hoo!
It's just five days off. It's a random Winter break from school, so I decided to use my remaining paid vacation hours from Wal-Mart. My 6 year anniversary is on the 16th, and every year we have to use all our vacation hours before our anniversary or they don't get used. Oh god. 6 years. *shudder*
News #2 I'm finally getting glasses. Yup. 31 years of my life goes by, and I'm finally getting them. Russ took me to get my eyes checked on Thursday. He's tired of my complaining about not seeing street signs. Especially at night. And I can't lie. Driving at night has made me quite nervous lately. So the exam indicated that I'm slightly nearsighted. (They kept emphasizing slightly.) My new glasses will be in on the 18th. My mom and my step-dad, Brad, have told me my entire life that I'm going to eventually needed glasses. I was really proud of my pristine 20/20 vision. Doctors marveled over it when I was a kid. But my parents said it won't last forever. Both my mom and dad have glasses and all four biological grandparents have glasses. My fate was inevitable. That sounds redundant. "My fate was inevitable." Because fate already indicates something is inevitable...
Anywho, so all week long in school, we had a new student, Matthew come visit us to see if he was a good fit for our school. And let me tell you, Matthew had an attitude problem. Every school rule and procedure was pointless. He was above all in his mind. Our principal needed our opinions on him by Thursday. When I went to go tell her, Matthew had walked into the room, so I couldn't talk in depth with her about him. I asked her to go into her office to talk, but all she said was "yes or no?" And I was put on the spot. When I said 'no' the look in her eyes was of complete shock and disappointment. His mom owns a company that could really help fund our school, and I know that was important to her. I felt horrible. And for the past two days, I couldn't get that look in her eyes out of my head. It's plaguing me. Also, when I told Russ about the kid Thursday after school, he said "just because he's a jerk, he doesn't deserve an education there?" And of course that pulled on my guilt strings. I went to lie down in bed today and just way over thought it. I just wrote a rather long e-mail to my principal explaining the reasons behind my initial decision. I said I forgot to take in account his future, and he deserves an opportunity to grow and thrive at our school.
I really did feel bad, and I felt like I betrayed my ethics as a teacher.
It's just that school gets to me so much. I LOVE the kids there. I LOVE teaching. But every day when I go, the other two teachers are constantly telling me what our principal did this time. Miss English Teacher was brought to her office and made to read part of the handbook out loud about profanity. She printed out a list of hundreds of homonyms and "dam and damn" just happen to be on it. She explained to the kids that that word did not used to mean what it does and went into the history of it. Everyone seemed to just shrug it off. Except for the principal's son who seems to have it out for Mrs English Teacher. He is always telling his mom that she is bullying him and is just plain throwing her under the bus for so many things. Mrs. Principal lectured Mrs. English Teacher until she cried. And this isn't the first time this has happened.
One of my students, who is autistic and loves making random lists of things, made a list of all the teachers at the school the last few years, and none of them ever came back. He asked me "Mrs. Malo, are you coming back next year?" All I could say is "I hope so." And I do. For the kids sake. But if all the teachers are not returning out of either their choice or Mrs. Principal's choice, then that's a huge red flag. The other two teachers I work with now say that they are not coming back next year.
I'm trying not to think about any of my jobs right now.
on another note...
my friend, Lindsay and I are going to take a road trip to visit our friend, Jilly about four hours away. Sunday through Tuesday. Jilly does not know that I am coming, so it'll be a surprise. mwahahahahahahaha...! I can't wait to see the kiddoes! She really needed a babysitter for Monday and somehow Lindsay got the job. lol. But I get to see my Jilly! I'm so excited.
Not much else to talk about. well there probably is. I'm just too tired to think.
Have a Happy Valentine's Day everyone!!
peace!
-mel-
3:22am
edit: I just realized I hadn't updated in a while. My bday was on the 7th. lol. yay another year older. yay thirty one! #primenumberpride #yesIjusthashtaggedonbloop. #omgineedtogotobed
3:26am
OH! I just remembered something else I wanted to Bloop. Tat pic!
my new tat!
the image I liked from the internet that originally inspired it:
my friend lindsay's design:
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REALLY going to bed now.
3:37am
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