The break that I was taking didn't last very long... never does.
My neck, shoulders, and back are really
fucked up from what happened. (An entry that I'm sure I'll do in the
near future - just not ready to right now.)
I was at Josh's last night. People seem
to find it difficult to understand that I'm ok being around him when
he's married to someone else and has a baby with her, when him and I
were together for 10 years... sometimes I think this is weird too, but
I don't know why it isn't as much as I thought it would be.
Went to GGBC this morning - my sister
went with me. It's been 10 years since I was there - nice being around
Keith again. Even though they have their own building now, it still
brought back a lot of memories of when I went every week before... too
many memories of Scott and Jenn - those conversations that always
happened on the way to and from GGBC.
Things got really overwhelming on
Thursday - again wishing that I could at least forget about things I
said in a few messages to Carlos - these are times that I'm glad he
doesn't read all of them - but I hate it when he reads those ones. A
lot of things that I mentioned that I wish I didn't.
Cody came home after running away from
the place he is supposed to be at yesterday. My sister had to make the
call for them to pick him up because he's not allowed to be home right
now (not for anything that he did, but because my sister doesn't
technically have custody of him right now - another entry at another
time). The police officer came and Cody ran again (why police didnt
follow the procedure like they are supposed to, I don't know). Anyway,
after my sister and I were at GGBC - her and Cody were talking on the
phone and as far as I know Cody is turning himself in tonight so that he
doesn't end up having a warrant tomorrow morning.
I'm so freezing today - snowed earlier...