Winter
When me and David met, he told me about him having a child when he was like 18. It was a little girl and her name was Winter. The little girl is now 13. When she was born, the lawyer told David all he had to do was sign a piece of paper so that he wouldn't have to pay child support. He didn't understand, so he signed it. He didn't realize that he was signing over his rights. David talks about how bad he has wanted to see her since I've been with him.
And I've always wanted him to meet her. He loves all his kids and every time he talks about Winter, he gets teary eyed. He was young and stupid and made a mistake.
Today....he got a message on facebook from Winters mom. Saying how Winter has been asking about him for over a year. How she wants to meet him. She sent David a picture of her along with her phone number. So David calls her and talks to her about Winter (Winter had went out to eat with her grandpa or something). And they talked for a while about her. David left his phone number with her to give to Winter so that Winter can call him whenever she wants to.
He has been clinging onto his phone for over an hour now.
I am so happy for him that he is finally able to get what he wants. But at the same time we've been talking about having a kid recently, and I'm supposed to have my birth control took out. I felt like we was finally making a step. Now, I feel like this is going to prevent it. Yeah, maybe it's bad of me to think like this but whenever I finally get him close to trying, that all this happens. Now I'm just so down and aggravated. I'm never going to get my baby. I'm never going get the baby I want with my husband.
I don't know. I know it sounds terrible but this is what I've been trying to get David to understand how bad I want a baby with him, and now it's not going to happen, because if all this goes the way I feel it's going to, then we are adding another teenager to my family.
I'm about to give up on the baby I want and just get my tubes tied.
I give up. |
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