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So I went 2 days ago to file my taxes. I'm getting back $6,200. Pretty proud of that. Of course now I've been thinking about bills, getting the car worked on, paying off my debts of unpaid bills, just things that NEED to be done you know? Mom is already texting me wanting to know how much she is getting, and when I will get it. Now keep in mind I already promised her money because of her and dad helping me out. We agreed on $1,000 a few months ago. So now she is already bugging me about it. I haven't even got the fucking money yet. I love my mom so dearly and we are all broke right now. She just text me a few minutes ago and told me she didn't have enough money to pay her bills. I told her to call and ask for an extension and I would pay them when I get paid on the 30th. I promised her money and I'm not going to just not give it to her....but I know what she's doing to. I've recently got this good job where I'm getting paid more. So she is out spending her money at the store, buying the kids things, and now doesn't have enough to pay the bills, and is going to get me for it cause she knows I will do anything for her and daddy. It just kills me, I'm still living paycheck to paycheck cause we are in so much debt. I'm trying and doing the best I can, but I'm honestly afraid she's going to break me. I will pay any bill they have. I will do anything for them cause they have helped me thousands of times.
But to be honest, I can't support me, my husband, my 6 kids, my mom, my dad, and my brother. I just financially can't do it. I need this money for MY family also. My dad works alot and makes good money. But my mom and my dad have alot of bills. I know that. But me and David are in such terrible debt that I'm honestly afraid they are going to put a warrant out for my arrest due to unpaid loans and stuff. I need to get my family straightened out and make mom realize I will do anything for them, but to please not take advantage of me, because that will just put me more in debt. I would pay my parents bills in a heartbeat, but I don't know if she realizes that I would help them, and let my bills slide.
I don't know what to do. It's stressing me out cause David is like "oh we are going to go do this, and go get that". NO! FUCK THAT! I want my bills paid. I want my car fixed cause it's our only car. I want my debt cleared. I want my overdrafts at 2 banks to be paid!. I want to be debt free. Fuck that new tv you want. Fuck that tablet. All of that comes AFTER bills. Not before. |
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