Letting Go...

06/13/2010

I took a trip to this whole new world i had to hide from ppl..
Its like a secret world.
I met this person i madly feel inlove wit, it lasted four months till she had to leave me behind..
It hurt like hell then she came bac nd now she has to leave again; sooner or later..
Its been for months since she came bac,
It seems like everyone leaves me, nt cuz they dnt like me anymore
;but bc they have to, they have no other choice..
my ex left me bc he had a baby comming nd he had to get things straight w/ his baby mama..
nd now my one love :"( has to leave me bc she has to move on in life; its for the best, i guess
I honestly cant stop crying bc having to let go of someone you love the second time its the hardest thing ive had to do in life, the first time was hell nd im nt trying to let that happen again..
im probably nt making anysense bt i sure hope i make it thru this.
Idk wheather to just end things straight up, or break up step by step??
I have to sucrifice alot of things already, It doesnt hurt as bad as last time..
But ive never been sooooooooo sad in my life, i cant talk to anyone about it bc no one understands,
nd some ppl already had to hear it the first time [i dnt wanna hear any i told you soo's or disappointment]
I dnt wanna hold on to her nd have her worry everyday, i feel like im holding her bac so i just have to let go bc her happiness, freedom, and her new beginning is totally worth my pain...[tears]
I really wanna cry as loud as i can bt i cant bc its all a secret that no one can know..

If you truly love someone you have to let go, so im letting go now...as much tears as ill cry, as much pain ill feel..its all worth it...

Im just gonna take one big break from everything, i mean its summer..
It'll get better nd better everyday...Its like loosing someone forever bt deep inside ik ill be okay...

And its all because ILOVEHER nd i want the best for her..
I want her to be happy.. I want her to move forward w/ her life nt having to worry bout me..
Nd no i can say i understand the saying "If you love something, set it free; if it comes back it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was."

--Anonymous-Chick