MONDAY
17th December 2012, 7.23 PM.
Err, I just came back from the toilet. But I've had a couple of thoughts flying in my head. One of them is gone (I've forgotten as usual >.>) but there's still the other. So...
Sometimes, I wonder what is blindness like? Is it scary being blind? With my active mind, I wouldn't want to become blind. I might keep imagining scary things coming out of the darkness and I wouldn't be able to open my eyes and make them go away. Last night, I had a little taste of what blindness might be like. I was on my computer, chatting at KidzWorld. After quite a while, I wondered what my family was up to. Imagine my surprise when I opened my bedroom door. Instead, of seeing the light switched on and a lit kitchen, it was all darkness. I wouldn't say it was pitch black 'cause I'd be lying if I did. Still it was much darker than I'd expected it to be. Lately, the nights here have been more darker. In the past, there used to be enough moonlight to keep me from being scared (which is why I've been sleeping in my parents' bedroom lately :3). I crept towards the other wing of the house (my family's apartment is U-shaped with two doors). At the end of the hallway, it was pitch black. Seriously, it was so black, I could've been closing my eyes all that time. I actually had to feel my way to my parents' door. When my fingernails accidently knocked against the door, I froze. I did NOT want to wake up my parents. Nothing happened. I exhaled and looked into the dark again. Could this be what blindness was like? It really did seem as though my eyes were closed. But I knew my eyes were open. I crept back to my room, exited Google Chrome, turned off the computer and crawled onto my bed. But I was already too scared. My new fear of the dark was what was keeping me awake till late in the night. Even though I had crept to my parents' room with my pillow and snuggled down (I woke my father but he allowed me to sleep there), I couldn't sleep. Not until it was after 12. That was when I could give in to sleep. I wish I wasn't so afraid. My method is to turn on the light in my bedroom with my parents' acknowledgment and when my parents came to check if I was asleep (I usually would be by then), they'd turn off the light. But if they've already slept, I couldn't do that. Wish I wasn't so afraid of the dark.
I've remembered my second thought but I don't think it's worth mentioning now. Not after such a dark story! :I |