WEDNESDAY
30th January 2013, 7.22 PM.
Depression And More Problems Hey people.
I was sort of depressed at school today. And while I was depressed, I got paranoid and thought that I was going to suffer from depress-
Sorry for the interruption. Honeybee just called me just now. She told me to delete all the entries that were about her, T.G and I. I was like, What??? Why?! And she was like, Just delete it!! And I said that I didn't want to. And then my brother called me to pray and I was about to tell Honeybee that I had to go but she'd already hung up.
What the football??
This was the main reason I even started a public online diary. To get all this stress off my chest! It's one problem after another. And now Honeybee's probably going to be mad tomorrow. Argh! Why don't people ever understand??? Now I really think nobody understands me. OK, I'm trying to be fair here, I'm trying to see from her point of view. I know she doesn't like me mentioning our problems, that she doesn't feel comfortable with it. On the other hand, it's my Journal and gosh, I feel so good when I share my problems. I don't like keeping it all bottled up inside of me, and none of my friends or classmates are interested in my problems anyway. When I try to tell them about it, they just, like go all, "Uh-huh, OK" and then chat about another topic or whatever. Sigh... I really thought I was going to have at least a good day tomorrow. You know, I've just notice that I've only one day without a problem so far this month. It's going to be February tomorrow, how time flies...
What the hell am I supposed to write here if I'm not allowed to even write about my life?! Hrr. I guess I'll be spending reccess alone since Honeybee is sure to be angry with me. Well, I won't give a shit 'cause it's not my problem whatsoever. Though it does bother me... -_-
Also, I was depressed just now 'cause Ms Sahara told me to rewrite my latest composition. She said that I have trouble focusing on the main theme. The same thing happened with the composition before this (she didn't ask me to rewrite it, though). I felt as though my dreams had been crushed and my nightmare had came true. Because, see, even if I do think that my writing is good, there's a small part of me locked deep down that keeps thinking that I write shit instead of stories...
LIFE, Y U NO BE PEACEFUL FOR ME!!! I keep thinking that and I find it a little funny, lol.
Well. That made me depressed all over again. Let's hope my Maths homework can help me take my mind off it. And no, that does not mean that I'm going to ignore the entire problem. >.> Should go do homework now..
Hope you had a nice day, everyone.
"Life is a rollercoaster." -Dreamer
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