Friends, Frenemies, And Best Friends (Forever)s

THURSDAY
7th February 2013, 4.28 PM.

Yep, I know, the day, date, and time isn't outside the layout as usual. I've decided to put it in the layout along with my entry 'cause you can hardly see it on certain layouts.

Well. Everyone decided to be a jack-ass today. Not everybody but you get the idea. Honeybee was rather irritated with me today. There's too many things to say why she was irritated at me so I won't bother. Hmm. So in English class, I was humming loudly while doing my work. Then Ms Sahara spoke up and was like, Stop pushing your luck. If you want to make one more sound, get out of my class. You're the one who sets everyone off, you know! I was fuming. But I plastered a smile on my face. I hate giving people (who are scolding me or anything) the pleasure of seeing me sad. OK, so sure, I know I'm a total nutcase and that I shouldn't have been making noises. But if there's one thing I can't stand, it's a false accusation!! I mean, since when have I ever caused the boys to make noise?! HELLO!! Just because I'm the Crazed Pyscho, it doesn't mean I make noises all the time!! Seriously, there are lots of times, while waiting for our teachers in between lessons, I talk to my friends normally, or read a book, or draw in my D&D Book!!! And while I do that stuff, the boys go mad!!! They don't care if I make any noise or whatsoever!! And what did Honeybee do? T.G would normally have just, y'know, didn't stare at me rudely, just ignored the whole thing. And I would have been glad. But Honeybee? Nope, she didn't stare. She turned around and laughed at me. In a mocking way. And she laughed as though she was agreeing with Ms Sahara. Jack-ass... I got so mad that I wrote in my D&D Book:
"FECK THIS
LIFE

ASS-HOLE

FITNAH
JACK-ASSES
FECK THE
HONEYBEE
FECK THE
SAHARA DESERT

THE FECKING
HONEYBEE
LAUGHED
AT ME

EVERYONE
THINKS
I'M A
NUTCASE

HONEYBEE PUSHES
ME AROUD
SHE TREATS ME
LIKE SHIT
SHE FECKING
IGNORES ME
WHEN I
DON'T UNDERSTAND
SOMETHING

EVERYONE IS
A JACK-ASS
EXCEPT GOD AND
THE PROPHETS"
I seriously regret writing them now... I'm still furious at Honeybee, though. What kind of BFF does that?!? Sometimes, I don't know if I really meant what I said in "Dear Honeybee..." It's really hard to decide. That dang Life Rollercoaster has its ups and downs.

Annnnnnd...the topic turns to The Frenemy. I think I mentioned something about wanting to be friends with The Frenemy again. Well, that 'friendly feeling' is gone! Ha! I knew it was temporary! It's just that she's nice to everyone but it feels like she's extra nice to me (STALKER, LOL ). That makes me a bit creeped out. Also, it was because of another thing. When we all rushed into the lift after morning assembly sometime this week, Honeybee was like, GET LOST, YOU!! GET LOST!! MOVE!! SHUT UP!' But I knew she didn't actually mean those words so I didn't say anything. I'm still trying to get used to her, anyway. So when Honeybee was half-shouting, I saw The Frenemy, who was behind Honeybee, frowning and muttering something. It looked suspiciously as though she was saying something about my BFF so I decided to do something about it (that, and because I hate her guts...I know, I know, I'm a meanie, but I hate her all the same). So at the beginning of our Maths lesson, while waiting for Mr Shade, I said something like, "You know just now at the lift, when Honeybee was shouting, 'GET LOST!' and all that stuff?" And she said, "Yeah?" And I said, "Did you say something to me?" And she said, "Oh, I said, 'Hi Dreamer!'" And I was like, But you were frowning...??? And she said, "Oh, that one I said to Honeybee, 'You don't have to say shut up right?!'" And she went on, "It's like Honeybee think she's the Queen of the World-" But before she could continue, I said, "Stop it." And there was an awkward pause, with a questioning look on The Frenemy's face. I continued, "I don't like people saying bad things about my BFF" or something like that. And she was like, Oh, sorry! I felt really guilty 'cause if Honeybee wasn't my BFF, I would probably have agreed with The Frenemy. When I sat down, I was like, Sorry, I'm trying to get used to Honeybee... And she was like, OK.

Sigh. I hate ranting about problems in my Dream Journal...why aren't there any good thi-OH YES! Guess what we had for our CCA today!! We played something like hockey! Except there was no ice and we played in the hall so there really wasn't a lot of space. We all, like, scrambled for the ball. Oh MAN!!! There's even a problem in that! *Facepalm* Well, I didn't want to sit around when it was the other two teams' turn to play. So I saw one of my friends from Chocolate Hearts, whom we will call Nibbles, playing with one of the Squishy Balls that were using for the hockey. I played with it and she got bored and went off so I played with another girl from Chocolate Hearts. Unfortunately, I bounced too hard and it flew over the railing. Too bad it didn't make it over the fence and into the field. Instead, it went down on the grass, and rolled into the drain!!! I thought it was the carpark at first but it so wasn't. I ran down the stairs and began climbing over the railing, thinking that I could fetch the ball but Net was there too and she pulled me back saying "DON'T!!" I stopped climbing but she was pulling me and I was about to fall down so I grabbed the railing again and she shouted "DON'T!" again 'cause she thought that I was gonna go and climb again. When I'd already maintained my balance, a girl from Chocolate Hearts, whom we will call Kisser, just kept shouting, "Don't! Don't! Don't!" And I got really irritated, and said something like, "I'm not climbing anymore, OK?!" Kisser was rather like The Frenemy except that she was one thing that The Frenemy wasn't - obnoxious!! And T.G, who was watching from a distance, yelled, "You will get scolded, you know!" Oh. My. God. Does she think I'm a fecking stupid dumb girl??!???!!? Obviously, I would get scolded. Idiot! In my head, I was like, "State the obvious!" But I yelled back to her, "I know lah!! Don't need to tell me, right!!!" Then I muttered to myself, "Everyone is being a jack-ass to me today" Net said to me, her voice softening, "Dreamer, do me a favour, and go and tell Ms Drill." I nodded and went off, Kisser following me. Ms Drill was like, Why you all play??!? You're supposed to sit down, right?! I went and sat down at the sides. My eyes began to well up with tears. But I refused to cry. Net sat beside me. She noticed the tears in my eyes. Of all the people who could've comforted me, it was Net!! Not Honeybee, not T.G, no, no, no. It was Net! She put an arm around me and was like, Cheer up, don't cry! I want that energetic self that always make me laugh! C'mon! And I smiled a little and was like, Yeah, and irritates you! It totally reminded me that my BFFs don't have to be the only friends I can depend on. There are always my other friends. And I always have my other self to talk to!

Have an awesome day, everyone! ^u^
"Life is a rollercoaster." -Dreamer