Shampoo, Fears, A Notebook, And My Past

FRIDAY
8th February 2013, 4.37 PM.

I'm going to talk about some stuff that I was thinking about, then I'm gonna dig up a bit of my past.

How do you shampoo your hair? I know, it's a really weird question to ask, but really, how? I use Johnson's Baby Shampoo and for some reason, I've started scrubbing my hair with it vigorously lately. I shampoo my hair on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. So I shampooed my hair just now. It's like, I rub it till there's soap and foam covering my head. But it really feels good to have all those bubbles on me. Honeybee told me that she shampoos her hair everyday. I was like, ?!!?!! My father told me that if you wash your hair everyday, it'll fall out. I told her that but she didn't seem to mind.

Actually, that was the only thought I had in my head. Oh, and the replacement teacher, who we will call Ustazah Helium, since I've been mentioning her a lot, gave me a notebook just now. On the first page, she wrote in really nice lettering, "Stay solehah always & Study hard okay" The page was dotted with blue flowers and she'd drawn a cute girl wearing a scarf with a blue (or was it pink?) flower on it. It was really nice! I do intend to score really well this year but I'm so afraid of failing. I just...I'm afraid I can't do it.

I'm afraid I'll fail my PSLE.

I'm afraid I'll disappoint the people I love.

Let's change the subject. Please. I honestly don't like to write about that. Gosh, I just realised that the way I write my entries are kind of different from the others. I mean, I know I write about different things but I write as though I'm speaking to ya'll at the moment, y'know? But there are probably entries that are just like mine anyways.

Hmm. I was going to talk about the time I was Primary 1. Well. I was like other little kids, one day best friends with So-And-So, the next day I ain't. The only BFFship that was kept consistent until the middle of my Primary 2 year was with Shuffles. I'm ashamed to say that I used to bully T.G ('cause, well, she was tiny, so...you get the idea). NO, I did NOT punch or slap her or mess up her lunch or anything like that! PUH-LEEZE, MISTER! (LOL) Actually, Shuffles and I used to 'bully' her but it was mostly me. Shuffles usually just approved or went along with my ideas. We used to just play pranks on her or call her names. Which counts as bullying. I guess. Anyway, it was like, for example, just as she was about to sit down, we pulled her chair back and she'd fall. Or if she told her mom or the teacher, I'd call her a baby and a tell-taler. I remember that she used to write notes to her mom whenever we had a problem or broke up (after Shuffles and I broke up in the middle of our Primary 2 year and somehow, T.G and I got together) and I'd get irritated by that. There was even once I stole T.G's wallet. Honestly, I promise you, I was not after the money. I sincerely was going to give it back to her when we lined up to go home. But I told Shuffles that I stole T.G's wallet and then everything went wrong. T.G was in tears and she told Ms Fir (our English teacher at that time) about her missing wallet. Then Ms Fir said, "Has anybody seen T.G's wallet?" Everybody chanted, "No" and I joined them even though I wasn't entirely sure if I should lie. But one person did not say no. And that person was Shuffles. She pointed at me and...well, you can probably guess what happens next. Fortunately, Ms Fir did not yell at me or anything. She simply asked why I stole the wallet. I wasn't sure how to explain to her that it was just a joke at that time and I didn't believe that she'd believe me. She repeated her question, then she simplified it. Instead of asking why, she said, "Did you steal the wallet because you wanted the money or was it just a joke?" Of course, I said it was the latter and then she released me. Unless Ms Fir ever reads this entry, I will forever wonder if she believed me.

You might wonder why Shuffles and I ever broke up. See it was because of this. I have my manly burps and deadly farts. But whenever I burp, people would stare at me. I can't help it! I was born with the manly burps and deadly farts (LOL). In fact, I have been farting loudly a lot today. Ah! I have no idea why I'm revealing these embarrassing things about myself to ya'll!! o.O Well, my manly burps and deadly farts are exactly the reason why Shuffles and I broke up. She said that everytime I burp or fart, people would stare at us. I said that they stare at me. But she insisted that they stare at her too. So...yeah, I was pretty much devastated. Who else would want to be BFFs with me? The strange thing is, I have no idea how T.G and I got together. I forgot! T.G said that there are two possibilities:
Possibility 1
Shuffles had accidentally spilled ink from a marker onto my table. And I don't mean a little bit. She spilled every ounce of ink in that marker!!! My classmates had tried a lot of things to get it off but it wouldn't go. I burst into tears when I found out, but hey, I was only Primary 2 or 3 by then! Then, T.G just randomly grabbed a random eraser and started erasing the ink just for fun. Then she started squealing because the eraser could erase the ink off! Then everybody grabbed an eraser and started rubbing the eraser off. I dried my tears but I felt really embarrassed that I got angry at Shuffles and felt really guilty because I made such a big fuss of the whole thing.

Possibility 2
T.G found me in the toilet crying because Shuffles had broken up with me. T.G comforted me and I asked her to be my BFF. And she said yes.

Well, I don't know if the second possibility is true but the first one definitely is. I so can remember that ink stain on the table!!

That's enough writing for me!! I'm going to go and play Transformice. :3

Have a memorable day, everyone! ^u^
"Life is a rollercoaster." -Dreamer