Why Is This Entry So Sad? Because It's Full Of Problems!

So. Hey people.

The Internet connection is annoying the hell out of me right now. I'm really sorry. I know it's not an appropiate thing for me to say. But it's the gospel truth, as they always say. I would've probably said "hell" instead of "heck". But I'm a bit upset and also bit tired since I just woke up from my lazy nap.

I'm pretty sure people will think I'm an actual crazed pysho if they've read DreamOreoCookies' entry. Probably. Most probably. I hate fights like this. What I'm talking about? I'm talking about the row I had with T.G and Honeybee yesterday. Sheesh, what's wrong with being not serious?? Why can't people just accept me for who I am?!? Why am I starting to sound like those people who rant??? LOL, ignore the last question. But...sigh. I'm starting to get tired of being the Weird One, the Odd One Out, the Crazed Pyscho, the Deaf Dreamer in my class. But I STILL don't want to change. Why do people never look on the bright side?!? They always want to point out the bad side of things! Is it so weird to try to cheer up T.G when she's unhappy at times? Apparently, it is to them. Is it so crazy to laugh and smile a lot? Again, it is to them. That's what it looks like to me. Now I'm worried that I sound a lot like The Frenemy. Merde. The only BFF who's not upset or angry with me is Deni but she hasn't experienced my...my craziness. I don't want to hate myself anyway! It's unhealthy! I'm not kidding, it is bad to hate yourself for who you are. I got that from Secrets of Successful Teens by a guy...called...uhm, I kinda forgot but I remember he had an "Adam" in his name. I'll check later. Anyway.

Everyone's special in their own way. That's pretty much true. So. This is my 'specialness'?? Well. Fine then. But I still am confused. Do I have to accept the world? Or does it have to accept me? It's probably the former (LOL, finally a reason so that I can use "former" and "latter"! ). I can't be a loner! Not again! I'm not that type. I'm pretty much friendly and outgoing except that I'm shy with strangers. I've experienced being a loner before and it's really not pleasant to see everyone go off chatting with their friends happily to recess. I guess The Frenemy is a loner. But I don't stare at people sadly and try to get their pity the way she does. *Forever Alone Derpface* Lol. Do I need to go counselling or something???!?!?!?!???!? But I probably won't tell the counseller anything. I'd just tell her to read my Dream Journal.

I guess that's enough sad writing for today. Why did this have to happen just as I told Ms Sahara about my Dream Journal???

Have a great day, everyone. .~.

P.S. If you haven't read her entry, by the way, here's a link --->http://www.bloopdiary.com/oreos/just-hits-me-in-the-face

EDIT: I didn't check but I just remembered the name of the author of Secrets of Successful Teens. His name is Adam Khoo. Also, if you've read DreamOreoCookies' entry and think that I daydream a lot, well, that's not true. Sure, I like daydreaming but I don't daydream often. When she said that I'm blur, well, yes, that's true. I am blur but that's always because I really don't understand what she's saying. Either that or I didn't her hear her properly. I tend to get a bit deaf sometimes. I'm not lying. I really don't know what's wrong with my hearing.

Also, in DreamOreoCookies' entry, I didn't say the "If you don't like it, leave me alone!" that way. I said it something like, "If you don't like it, leave me alone, no problem (even though I had a problem with that)." What I meant was that, if they wanted to leave me, it was OK! I wasn't going to stop them! If they wanted to break up, go on! It's not like I told them to do it or whatever. But I guess she saw it that way. I just hope that she reads this entry and sees what I actually meant. Sigh.