well on monday i went to get tested to see if im legible for the full drug test, they did a bunch of tests like on my heart, piss test, blood test height weight and whole bunch of other stuff basicaly to check if im healthy or not
they also gave us all the information on what we need to know about the drug testing and it made me feel so much more comfortable because they have already tested this on rats and over 1500 people and theyve been testing it for over a year they are now just doing lat minute changes to make it better and to see if they can do higher doeses
they will be giving me ketamine(yay a drug in which i already party with so thats totally awsome cause its gonna be PURE  ) and some sleeping pill along with the drug they are testing
the drug they are testing is to help control obese peoples eating addiction basically by fucking around with your seritonin in your brain so that your body supresses your appetite (kind of like what exctasy does) so i cant wait and ill be paid 5525 bucks at the end of the 7 weeks BOMBDIGITY
the doctors called me to confirm that YES i am qualified to do the testing so now i just have to stay off drugs until the screening date which is a 5 day stay and they will be doing tests to see if i have kepy off drugs and to see if i will be able to handle the drug take that will be coming with the ACTUAL tests
so i ended up telling my mom and dad about it (i dont live with them) my dad told me he would give me 5000 bucks NOT to do it  he was just trying to make me feel guilty for him not feeling very comfortable about it
and my mother well shes mommy she doesnt want me to do it either
but i told them both i understand where they are coming from but if i didnt feel safe doing it i wouldnt do it so when it really comes down to it its my decision so i told them to drop it because i didnt want this to start stupid pointless arguments and they both said fine
alot of people would say WHY your fucked, do you really need the money that bad and the answers are no i dont need the money at all i just see it as well i qualified(finally) for one of these tests and im interested in trying it out for my own experience and hey this drug might benefit me in the end anyways because i have the appetite of an obese person but im a munchkin lol (that could also be due to all the pot smoking lmao)
so yah thats that and im psyched for it
another thing
i had said my new years resolution is gonna be to be a good girl not be so sexual to have sex with a guy only if i actually like him/seeing him
well ive been doing fantastic keeping that up well wouldnt you know temptation is fucking testing me and its annoying me
theres these guys that come into my work like everyday sometimes twice a day because they plow the parking lot where i work well theres 3 main guys victor(the oldest) his bro (unknown name) and andy the youngest hes pretty cute and i added him to facebook well he has a gf but he still hits on me and today at work he was asking so what are we doing tonight (basically telling, not asking me that we are meeting up) so yah he was texting me hey beautiful what are we doing tonight but HE HAS A GF and i told him im not looking to be the other girl i want to look to be THE girl but he just disregarded that ARGH guys its bothering me why cant i ever have single guys going after me its always guys with girlfriends what is it that i do to deserve this im bound to live a lonely unhappy SINGLE life argh bullshit |
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