My fictitious happy life.

03/17/2011

"You are the first thing that I think of at 3 am. Will you be there to put pennies on my eyes? Would you like a beer, or a cigarette. I will give you what you want. Will you really mean it when you say I love you? Would you like a garden, a castle, a rocketship, a baby? Cuz I can give you what you want. If you say no, I refuse to miss you. I can give you what you've wanted."- Cloud Cult

"If I were a boy, even just for a day. If I were a boy, I think I would understand, how it feels to love a girl, I swear I'd be a better man. I'd listen to her, cuz I know how it hurts, when you lose the one you wanted cuz he's taken you for granted and everything you had got destroyed. But you're just a boy. You don't understand. How it feels to love a girl. Someday you'll wish you were a better man. You don't listen to her, and you don't care how it hurts. Til you the one you wanted cuz you've taken her for granted, and everything you had got destroyed."- Beyonce

Today starts off just lovely, dearest diary.

Today I woke up late, and had to rush out the door to take Christina to school, pick up james from peck, and go get my shit from Corey's. Damn that boy doesn't know anything. Honestly. Leave my shit on your porch, and then ask me why I just grabbed it and left? Honestly, I fucking hate you. I can't believe you would pull this shit on me, and have the NERVE to ask me why I didnt come inside to talk to you. Then, when I said I don't give a fuck, try to make me feel bad by lying to me about some girl that's laying in your bed. Too bad, I don't believe a word of what you say to me. Not anymore. Talk shit, and belittle me all you want, I don't believe a word of it. Make yourself feel better for fucking your own life up, by making me feel bad, well guess what. It's not working. I feel fine.

"I think you should know this, you deserve much better than me."-Hinder

He's spinning me in circles and won't leave me alone. Cold for 5 minutes, hot for 3... like he never wants to see me again but he has to tell me something in person? What the fuck is that?? I'm wondering what it is, but on the other hand I could care less. He's a stupid fuck of a guy. Like seriously. Tell me so I can erase you from my life and my cell phone

The rest of the day to be filled with celebrating my best friends Second Birthday. She's the world to me, she's amazing and she loves me and I love her back. She holds my when I cry and makes me laugh exactly when I need it. Her second birthday is the day she got her life back, from a brain tumor. She's healthy now, and safe and that relieves me so much because I really need her. She's the air that I breathe, and everything to me. Without her strength love and support, I don't know what I would do, who I would be, or if I'd even be around. It's a huge day for all of us, because we were blessed with God's grace, as she was given back to us.

Homework too. Homework and celebrating.

More later. <3 <3 <3

Me