Rough Night

Last night I had a hell of a time sleeping. Was even taking out my bad mood on the boy a bit..not like I was snapping at him or anything. But when he finally came to bed and wanted to cuddle I was a little standoff-ish. Gave some half-hearted excuse about being too hot to cuddle and he said it was alright and went to lay onhis back to go to sleep. Felt bad cause he kept making funny moaning whimpering like noises in his sleep cause I wasn't that close to him. We almost always fall asleep either me in his arms or him spooning me since I like to sleep on my side. I cried a bit and went to the guest room to make sure not to bother or wake him. Finally consented and head back to our bed after I had some time to relax. I felt bad for being a little cold to him..so I snuggled up to his side and he woke up enough after a while to kiss my forehead and say 'I love you'. Then he lifted up his arm so I could snuggle in closer and lay on his chest. Even though I move and switch positions throughout the night, he always stayed with me in some way and made sure he was holding me. He's so sweet..always holding me close, calling me beautiful even when I least feel like it. Cooks for me at times since I don't know how to cook alot. =x But he doesn't laugh at me for it or complain. It's gonna kill me if I go back home..so used to being able to be with him everyday and all the little things that I cherish about him. He's such a beautiful boy..wonder how the heck he fell in love with me. =p