*Sigh*
I didn't go for my damn walk yesterday. I will today though because I NEED my period to come and for some twisted reason, exercise brings it on. I can lose weight and fall pregnant at the same time lol
There's a downside to all this. I know I should be trying for a baby from April next year because if I fall pregnant sooner, it's going to interfere with my diploma. BUT I CAN'T HELP IT!!! Lol, If there is one thing I really want right now, it's a baby. I also really want to finish the diploma because this way I won't have to wait more than a year to actually start my own clinic or find a good stable job. This course is going to secure our future financially.
I did come up with a couple of solutions. A) My husband could get paid maternity leave. B) I could study at home. B I'm actually umming and arrring about because it's part of the diploma to work in a clinic. This makes it so much more difficult. is also going to be difficult because my husband is working on a contract. He needs permanancy to be able to get the maternity leave. I REALLY hate his employers right now. He's been working in that office for 3 years and they STILL haven't offered him a permanant position. They just keep extending his contract. I'm hoping in the next couple of months he can maybe push for the on-going job. He's great at what he does. I can't understand why they keep dragging it on.
So, I have no idea what to do now. My period may not even come til April. If it does, I may not even fall pregnant til April. But then again, I might. I just don't know. See, if I fall pregnant April, the baby will be due january. March will be december. Feb will be november. Jan will be october. Dec will be september and this month will be August. I doubt very much that it will happen before Feb. So if I fall pregnant in Feb, I'll only have 1 month before the course finishes. I hoping that if this DOES happen (IF), then the college will sort something out for me. I mean, they would have to right? They can't just expect you to pay thousands of dollars on a course you won't get to finish. They would have to organize the rest to be part time or something... Oh dear, I'm so very confused. I want both now Maybe I'm being selfish. Maybe I should hold off on the Clomid til April.. |
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