Aww dangit!
I ended up going to sleep and dreaming about him.....
Not gonna lie tho...it was kinda nice...He was relaxed and happy to see me...he ended up at my home somehow....and I saw that he was tired so I told him to get some rest. He was grateful and laid down on my bed. I went to the bathroom to put these bandaids on some aweful cuts that never got stitched up on my legs and stomach....but my cousins kept interupting me because they needed to use the bathroom and supposedly their problems were worse than mine...one was on her monthly demon and the other just needed to use the toilet. My cousin told me she needed help cleaning up the mess of slightly blooded paper towels on the wet bathroom floor...I told her 'ew...you want me to touch your bloody mess?..uh...no...'...but then it sounded like my crush was gonna open the door soo I quickly grabbed the towels and threw them in the toilet for lack of a better place....flushed and then plundged the toilet....I then washed my hands thoroughly...because ew...but when I opened the door my crush was still in bed....just barely stirring...my cousins asked what he was doing on my bed asleep...one was smirking the other was disgusted with me....lol...I told her no we didn't do what she's thinking...that he was just tired soo I let him take a nap. I left it at that and decided to let them fight over the bathroom and I'd use it after....I went to my crush just as he was getting up and he told me he should head home now....I smiled and said ok....he left and I stared at the spot he was laying on and well...I wanted to lay there....just to feel close to him....I didn't mind you...but I was tempted....besides later I was gonna sleep there anyway...soo I was still giddy...but first I needed to take care of my wounds...then I woke up....
Best sleep ever btw....until my grandpa ruined it by making me get up....
I know more or less what that dream is saying....maybe...
To me its just showing me what's been on my mind...that I want to get close to him....that I miss him. The injuries to the legs and stomach is because I've been looking into tummy tucks and leg lifts if I were ever to need them....I know if I lose weight that my skin isn't gonna bounce back. I've been heavy for way too long and its not a mere 20lbs I need to lose. Typically when I work my weight drops pretty easily....not entirely sure why....but it does. Soo I'm hoping it'll happen again once I get work..
I went to that agency I said I was gonna go to on Monday. They haven't called me yet but I'm hoping by next week they will. I'd prefer an inventory/receiving job with apparel and accessories....I like working with those things...but I'll take anything they offer. My cousins friend might show up tomarrow and I'm hoping she'll hook me up....still...I plan on putting out apps at different locations for other jobs....if I wait for the agency job to call...I might end up without a phone.....and miss the call.
This girl I used to work with got a job at Universal Studios and I remembered they would be hiring right now because of Halloween. I've been told they hire pretty easily...but idk...I've worked for a themepark before and it didn't go very well. I wasn't a bad worker but it was a pain in the butt to get to on the bus (2hours going and 2 hours coming back...) for only a few hours a week...for minimum wage....plus cleaning the park isn't fun....its boring. I tried to entertain myself and search out the trash...lol...but at the end of the day I was in pain....I ended up with bruises on my toes and a limp. I would of enjoyed it more if I lived nearby and could of actually enjoyed the free admission to the park on my off time...but at the end of my shifts...I only wanted to go home. The idea of walking the park on my recovery time seemed like punishment. Plus big girls with big chests don't always fit in the fun rides....soo what was the point?...I ended up having to 'voluntarily quit' when I got pnemonia....probably due to being out at 4am, on a bus with sick people, people coughing/sneezing in your face as you cleaned the park, being out in the rain, and inhaling the fogger machine smoke.....because I didn't have the money to see a doctor after paying part of a bill and buying a bus pass...and the free clinics took only appointments for some reason and could only book me in 2 weeks....I needed a doctors note to get back to work but after I got the letter saying I 'quit'....I gave up....
There's a few places hiring nearby in a few months....and I'm hoping I'll find something before the year is up....my hope is crashing tho....I've been out of work for nearly a year....more if you consider the fact that the two 'jobs' I got were only one day jobs...each. Because then...you can say its been nearly two years.....idk...wish me luck. |
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