These days it really seems like you can only depend on yourself and no one else... I guess i tend to push my problems aside and worry about helping everyone else before i help myself. How old are you anyway if you don't mind me asking??
You seem very mature for being only 18. (I say that like i'm old lol, i guess i just feel old). What about your family? Are you close with them?
The coast guard is something you want to do or is it you just running from everything and getting a new start?
now i feel like i'm prying.. i hope i'm not keeping you.. i can understand wanting to get out and start fresh. you have to do what's going to make you happy.