Happy Happy Joy Joy.....
So, how many of you are singing that song? And do you think it ages me to quote a 1990's cartoon theme song? 
What has been going on in my life in the past month? Let me see...
I have been working 2 jobs (mostly at my original job). I was blessed with the chance to see my grandma this week. I hadn't seen any family from down where she lives since September. I was missing her a lot too. The holidays were a bust for several reasons. I was unable to go to my niece's 7th birthday party as well last month (weather and finances).
Back to my grandma's visit though...My Aunt Kathy came as well. She as able to see one of her friends from her sophomore year in high school...for the first time since that time. My aunt is 61 years old, fyi. They had a grand old time...talking each other to death. Haha. Grandma asked if they ever "wound down" at one point. I was mainly sitting around listening to them all talk. The friend was the older sister to one of my mother's best friends (from the area I live in). Both my mother and her friend are now both deceased due to different circumstances/timing. Aunt Kathy's friend knew my sister and I when we were young (when my mom was still alive). I guess her and Terri (her deceased younger sister) came down to KS when my mother had her stroke. Mom had a heart murmur and that was not the first time she had a cardiac event. A heart attack is what killed her at 27 years of age...just so you know. It has been a LONG time ago. I do not really grieve Mom anymore. I grieve what I lost when she died at times, but not her specifically. I was 5 years old and I barely remember Mom as it is.
The person I grieve is my grandpa. In fact, Grandma and the other 2 "talkers" were talking about Grandpa this week. I had to leave the room because I was about to break down crying in front of them. That cannot happen. My family does not know the full extent of my grief. I do not want to burden them with it. In fact, very few people know just how much I miss my grandpa. I am doing better than I was back in May (when he died), but it will always be hard to deal with no matter how much time goes by. I know that from too much experience with death. Enough about that.
Grandma bought me a new pair of sneakers (much needed, mine were getting WORN OUT). She didn't like the overly large men's sneakers I was wearing. I have been wearing those shoes for 2 years. I don't know why they bothered her now. Haha. I didn't have the money to get a new pair of shoes though. Thus, it was a blessing. 
Grandma, Aunt Kathy, and I went to a family member's retirement ceremony during their visit. 36 and 1/2 years with a local police department. That is an accomplishment!
Okay, I better go get something productive done. Talk to you later.--Robyn |
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