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by nerdface_

018. D2- Your crush/significant other

08/24/2010

I don't know where the sunbeams end and where the starlight begins. It's all a mystery.

Dear Ben,

So, we're not currently "together." But I guess we're not really apart, either. It's difficult to say. We broke up because we rushed it. Now that we've slowed down, and we've kissed and admitted our feelings again, things are at a standstill. The truth is that I don't mind.

I was SO sick of being slobbered all over by clueless guys who didn't challenge me. It's an insult to my intelligence when a guy says all the things he thinks I want to hear. You're not like that. You match me wit for wit. I have to work for it just as much as you do. It feels good.

It's cool to know I can get my shit together before anything serious happens. We did rush the last time. We weren't ready to officially be together and to use that "relationship" word, and I think it was super mature of us to back down and slow up. To be honest, I wish I could tell you right now that I'm ready to give us another shot...but I'm not ready if you're not.

I know that we're both damaged goods, and we're both having trouble getting over what evil exes did to us. Maybe we should both take stock of this. I'm not her. You're not him. It's a different time, we're two different people.

All I know is this: I'm digging this feeling of knowing again that when I see you, I can kiss you. And you best believe I'm looking forward to the next one, Bender.

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that is very mature, to know when things are going too quickly and subsequently backing off. he sounds like a great guy for giving you and the relationship the space it needs.

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