002: How did it come to this?

12/10/2011

Please die Ana
for as long as you're here
...we're not


With a diet coke in hand, I sit digesting the artificial sugar (correct me if I'm wrong haha) and think of how hungry I truly am. How did it come to this?
I remember when I "graduated" from the 8th grade and went to High-School...my confidence plummeted. I have such a big place in my heart for kid-bullying. In grade school, I was stuck between being "healthy" and "cute" I guess. I wasn't thin but I wasn't big. I was the girl that all the guys was just friends with. I wanted to change that. I thought it was my lack of wearing makeup, wearing a size 7 jeans, and lack of cleavage wearing tops.
SO....in high-school, that all changed. I began wearing heavy eyeliner, only living on diet coke, and wearing push up bras.....now I'm stuck in that mind set.
How did it come to this? Now 22, I sit have no explanation for my confidence. *Sighs*